[pharmgal89]

I am so tired of just going out and not stopping to think first. Once I am gambling it's as though the money is not real. My brain doesn't see it the same way as if I was spending that money on clothes or food. I am so frustrated and just want to stop instead of stopping and starting over and over.

[Zimbabwe]

Originally Posted by pharmgal89

I am so tired of just going out and not stopping to think first. Once I am gambling it's as though the money is not real. My brain doesn't see it the same way as if I was spending that money on clothes or food. I am so frustrated and just want to stop instead of stopping and starting over and over.

I'm exactly the same Pharmgal. I always come up with ways I can make money from gambling, I imagine that I'm going to become loaded, popular and have an awesome free life because I can make money out of gambling and can control myself when I'm doing it.

It never works though. Instead of helping me improve my life, gambling and chasing money is destroying my life. I haven't honestly been truly happy since I started gambling. When I think about the things I could have done with the time and the money I've wasted over the years it makes me sick, but if you keep looking back you'll never move forwards.

I'm trying to stop again, hopefully this time will be the last time. All you can do is take it one day at a time.

I wish you all the best in stopping. Be strong.