[shaneomac12]

Hello all , i have been struggling with online gambling for the past year , spending 300$ a day , only to lose every bit and never win , i also spend 100$ on scratch tickets to catch the next high of wining something but never do , and i play this ps4 nhl 16 hockey game that i spend 300$ a day sometimes to get a good player to play online with , and i never get anything but i keep trying to see if i get anything but i dont , only to look at bank account and having - currency everytime i look , the depressing feeling is so overwhelming sometimes i feel so depressed i want to end it all , but i just cant seem to get over it , .. i find it hard to do , i only make min wage , its effecting my work as i feel depressed all the time .. not sure what to do i feel lost , im still going through a break up , even tho its 4 months ago , my sister is in the hospital sick from mental disorders , i feel that my gambling/worrying about her, my work and stress that comes with life is causing me to get high blood pressure , i feel that im going to take a heart attack i just dont know what to do , so i write this in the need for help , more so is anybody else going through what i am or im just losing my mind ? any suggestions will be helpful , thanks for reading god bless..