Hi. Im a 28 year old female. Ive struggled on and off since high school with depression medications. But, I don't think that's whats wrong with me. Its so hard to explain me. I feel like Ive always struggled with who "ME" is. Ive always tried to change it or change how I look. I used to struggle with cutting myself ( I don't now). I cut my wrists about 8 years ago. I said I wanted to die, but really that's one of my biggest fears. So, maybe I wanted attention.I don't know. Anyway, My moods are up and down. Im happy, Im sad, Im mad, Im overwhelmed.... Sometimes, ill be really into something and I need to look it up online. then another day it will be something else and I don't know why I wanted to know about the other thing and I just go back and forth. Ive always felt like ive worn a mask and don't know who I really am and its frustrating. I have 2 kids and a boyfriend. I dont treat my kids bad or anything, I just struggle with issues I try to keep to myself. Every doctor Ive been to thinks Im just a tad depressed and some medicines that make me feel numb to everything are going to help and they dont. Does anyone out there have any ideas?? I dont know what to do

[glok]

Hello, kimberlysuewho. Please consider printing a copy of your post for your treatment team. The treatment you are getting is not working. Adjustments are indicated.

I wish you well.

[pegasus]

Hello kimberlysuewho, welcome to Psych Central.

It sounds like it is more than depression to me, it's not unusual to have more than one diagnosis. I would go back to your doctor and ask for a proper evaluation to find out what is going on. You shouldn't have to struggle so.

In the mean time you could try these online tests and print out the results and take them with you when you see the doctor. The Sanity Score - Test Your Mental Wellness and Psychological Tests and Quizzes