[achik]

Hello
I'm posting this thread to find a solution to this issue that I have found recently, am 25 year old, I always felt awkward with a strange size of my posterior, which cased me a lot of trouble in my childhood, but I always thought that it was normal since I was really fat and I lost my fat gradually but with left-overs.

During my life, I had never been said to be an effeminate, I had some effeminate friends to which I could easily compare my self to.

However, am strangely careful and nice to other people, I was always to giving people caring about them, maybe because my mother is such a kind person that I really don't think a human being could be so ever. My father in the other hand was rude and I was always dealing with him with a huge respect with fear since he had a really tough childhood.

But, am completely different from the majority of my surrounding, I don't like to be helped, and I ask rarely for help because I have a very strong Self-esteem. I like mathematics and am good at it ! I have a taste of a pro masculine, I like black color, I watch football and other sports, I played also, and I had also the right masculine choices, video games, anime, action and comedy movies, and I don't like shopping... I'm completely straight I love women. I respect women but I feel always shy in front of them, but its because also of my religious background.

The trigger was that recently, I sort of haired my classmates laughing, it was strange because I could not figure out why, I asked some friends but they did strangely deny anything awkward. day after day I felt completely surrounded with theses voices, and figured out that it was because of some characteristics that I have, and it was brought by a teacher's joke will I was outside of the classe. my bad body shape, my awkward standing, my talking and also my caring to everybody mad me in a inappropriate situations that I could not escape anymore. I began to be paranoyed by this, shamed and devastated, I may have encountered some mysterious laugh in my life about my compartments, but this time this was away from ending, since this time am in a new group of classmates.

Please I could bearly sleep, I could not get rid of this idea from my mind. what should I do?

[Thunder Bow]

People who make fun of others, for any reason are Bullies, and they are all about Control and being mean, so they can be the center off attention. Knowing yourself well, will give you some immunity from name calling. You seem normal to me. Look at those bullies body shape. I bet they look much more funnier than you can ever look. Just imagin how they would look sitting on the toilet with their pants down!