[loloboul]

Hi,

I don't think I'm really crazy but sometimes I act like I am. I don't control my feelings, my anger. I scream at people I love for no good reason. I throw stuff around.
I constantly doubt my 1year &1/2 boyfriend. I constantly doubt myself and after I have one of my anger crisis people ask me if I'm crazy. I think I may be. I feel so unstable in my emotions. I can jump from laughing to crying and crying to laughing at any moment.
I feel like I live for my boyfriend's attention. I don't feel like myself lately. And it was the same with my ex who was my 1st boyfriend for 4 years 1/2. I know this isn't a real problem and that other people have real problems and struggles in their lives and thinking of that makes me hate myself even more. I just want to get my life together and not depend on anyone's constant attention to validate who I am. And I need to do that now and be over with this bipolarity.

I'm scared of talking to someone and I feel I need help. What do I do? How can I get out of this cycle

[gayleggg]

I'm glad that you have an anger crisis team. Learning more about anger can really help. It does sound like it might help you if you did talk to a therapist. I can understand your being afraid but it could really help. I think that anger plagues us because we can't express our true feelings and therapy helps with that.

There are a lot of helpful articles on PC about anger and needing others approval. Here are just a few:
How to Switch Off an Angry Person | World of Psychology
Anger Management | Psych Central
Anger Management | Psych Central
7 Mistaken Assumptions Angry People Make | Psych Central

[JosephR]

Originally Posted by loloboul

Hi,

I don't think I'm really crazy but sometimes I act like I am. I don't control my feelings, my anger.

I'm scared of talking to someone and I feel I need help. What do I do? How can I get out of this cycle

You have the hard part down, Take pride in that first. Some people go a life time with out making it that far

[(JD)]

I really don't like the word "crazy" for anything regarding mental health/illness.

Talking with experts is a good thing...many people with anger issues (a component of depression) don't even realize it! You have completed the first step.

The focus should become AT WHAT are you angry. You've identified that the people to whom you are showing your anger really aren't the cause. Maybe make a list of all the things you would change in your life, if you could just wave a wand and make different? I think you may find causes for that anger listed... often being angry isn't only a reactive emotion, but can be a cry for help. You want someone else to fix "this" for you...

Then you'll want to focus your anger properly. To take anger at a unfair issue (like women's right to vote, for example) and using the energy to make signs, rally women for boycotts etc is a good thing.

It's important to let others know when you are angry, at times. TO be able to tell someone, "that really makes me angry" will help you to identify your negative emotion and help control a reaction and focus the good aspects onto a solution rather than "the messenger" etc.

As for the swift mood swings it could be a disorder or it could be more negative, improper reactions (REactions) rather than positive responses (actions). Time will tell.

[Thunder Bow]

There are no quick fix to our problems. Never stop expressing your feelings all together, or you will go "crazy". You already know that you don't need someones attention to validate who you are.