I was diagnosed with major depression many years ago. I take meds and mostly they seem to keep me 'normal'. My meds have never been changed, other than dosage. I've had times of deeper depression here and there. However, lately I feel like I'm in a terrible cycle. Some days I'm in so much pain and crying for no reason. For the 1st time in my life, I called a crisis line. Then other days this mood passes and I feel on top of the world. Happy and laughing - although this is quite rare. Most days I just 'am'... With no happiness and no real sadness or pain. I am going through a difficult time in my life, but I'm wondering if my depression isn't just 'major' anymore? I'm not sure what to think. Neither my dr or T has suggested this. My next appt isn't for a while. Wondering anyone's thoughts.

[kaliope]

it may be good to try and get into a dr sooner and talk about your concerns. it may be that the meds arent working any more after all this time and need to be changed or that it has been bipolar all along but the manic side just hasnt manifested itself until now. with added stressors things change and meds should be adjusted to assist with those changes.

[Thunder Bow]

The meds may now be having a negative effect on you. Talk to your doctor about getting off of them, or changing to some thing less strong.