[internetbunny]

Hi everyone. I'd like to apologize in advance if this is not in the right category.

Some bit of history: Throughout my childhood I've sufffered from major depression, anxiety disorder, and some bit of dissociative tendencies and trauma. But through intense therapy I have managed to overcome some of these things. Although I do not go to therapy anymore.

This isn't the first time it has happened. Today I went somewhere that I was excited about for a week. When I arrived, the initial feeling was joy but then after a few minutes of being there I felt a sudden emptiness, a numbness, but at the same time a feeling of suffocation. I felt far away from myself and things around me. It feels like I've checked out even though I do not want to be.

[Crazy Hitch]

I'm not 100% sure but if I took a shot in the dark I'd say I would personally identify that as being some form of dissassociation because that's round about how I would describe myself when I dissassociate. Others may give different responses. I'm not sure that I've answered what you asked simply because you've already stated that you have dissociative tendencies and have not alikened your personal experience of the description in your 3rd paragraph to being that. Hope that makes sense. Hopefully you will get some clarity soon.

[pegasus]

Hello internetbunny, it sounds like it could be a panic attack, this can make you feel numb and feel like you can't breathe. I'm sorry that happened to you.

[amandalouise]

internet bunny when this happens to me my treatment providers call it depression. with most people it happens during special occasions like day after christmas, or christmas day, day after easter or the day of easter...

my treatment providers say its because of all the excitement leading up to the event causes the body to produce endorphins\epinephrine to keep up with all the stress and activity needed leading up to the event. but then like a sugar high the body cycles back down with the realization that theres no more work to be done and the event will soon be over/ or is all over crash.

my suggestion if this continues to bother you contact your treatment provider. sometimes stabilizing agents like antidepressants can prevent event crashes like this.

[Thunder Bow]

Maybe you felt you did not not deserve Joy, and your mind shut you down. Learn that the opposite can be true.

[*Laurie*]

I've had that happen to me a lot in life. I believe it's a form of dissociation.

[Idontsufferfrominsa]

I think it could be a combination of all of these. Think about how your body felt..heart, breath, tingling, floaty... It will give you a better direction to look in. Meantime... As the docs say... Distract and use those coping skills! Are you as sick of hearing that as me? Let us know some more details. Maybe we can figure things out and decide if you want to go see someone.