[Liz168]

I've noticed an odd trend in myself and it kind of worried me and confused me so I went to see if anyone had this same thing and I couldn't find anything.
I often enjoy to not be in control. Sometimes I like to be told what to do. I like to be controlled. Before anyone skips to any weird conclusions, this is not a sexual thing. Nor even strictly relationships. That's all I could find online was sexual fetishes and such. I am a senior in high school, I have never had sexual relations.
I just enjoy being submissive. It's weird and I'm kind of worried something is wrong with me...
Last school year I started showing symptoms of depression and anxiety. I'm suicidal and have self-harm issues. I already knew I had a sleeping disorder and possible and unidentified eating disorder (no appetite, eating is an unpleasant chore). I'm sorta scared that yet another thing is wrong with me, but I really want to understand this. I have a friend who's been really helping me through things and she's started noticing this in me and I just want to at least be able to explain it to her.

[iwonderaboutstuff]

I think we all like others taking control, making the decisions sometimes. Maybe keeps you from having to think for yourself sometimes. That you're cognizant of it, and presumably choosing to be submissive, I'm not seeing the harm unless you're experiencing negative consequences or believe you're not responsible for yourself.