[Vikings2596]

Hello everyone,

I hope you guys read this and I can get some help. I am 19. For almost a year now, I’ve had a really distorted perception of reality. I feel like everyone knows my inner thoughts and feelings. Almost like life is scripted or staged. Like my friends and family are not real. Like I’m living a lie. This all started when one night, a group of friends and I smoked some pot and I got extremely paranoid. I don’t remember what everyone was talking about but I felt like they were all talking about me. For a while now, I’ve been scared that I might be gay, even though I know I’m not. I do not like men, but this is something that scares me. I’ve had gay thoughts that I do not even want to have. I do not think there is anything wrong with being gay, I just don’t want to be gay. Some nights I just get a really deep pit in my stomach and I think very deeply about my life and who I am as a person. The whole idea of life confuses me and I don’t even feel like it’s real anymore. About 4 months ago my family and I moved from the East to the West Coast. I have no friends here. I am starting school soon. I have a job. Everything makes me nervous and paranoid. I’m always worrying about everything, like work. I’m always biting my fingers. Now, I don’t even want to do anything. I just want to lay in bed. I do not want to kill myself, but lately I’ve been feeling like I’d be better off dead. This all happens randomly. Some days I’ll be fine, then some days, like today, I’ll feel horrible. I hope someone can give me some advice and help me out. I am going to a psychiatrist this week but I’d like to hear from some of you as well.

Thank you.

[Thunder Bow]

You seem to be feeling depression and acute anxiety. Best to not smoke Pot for that will make you feel even worse. It is good, that you are seeing a Psychiatrist. Therapy will take time.

[avlady]

yes seeing a doc is a good idea and don't smoke pot too!!!

[ablankscript]

I have read that some individuals seem to be prone to develop psychosis following smoking weed usually it is temorary, but it continues through out that period of smoking pot. Thus if an individual smokes weed the affects linger, the more often they smoke the more psychotic they will be even while not currently under the influence. Smoking weed sounds like a bad idea for you, everyone responds differently. If you do a web search for Marijuana and psychosis a lot will come warning individuals who have psychiatric conditions to be wary about weed.

[kempley]

Originally Posted by Vikings2596

Hello everyone,

I hope you guys read this and I can get some help. I am 19. For almost a year now, I’ve had a really distorted perception of reality. I feel like everyone knows my inner thoughts and feelings. Almost like life is scripted or staged. Like my friends and family are not real. Like I’m living a lie. This all started when one night, a group of friends and I smoked some pot and I got extremely paranoid. I don’t remember what everyone was talking about but I felt like they were all talking about me. For a while now, I’ve been scared that I might be gay, even though I know I’m not. I do not like men, but this is something that scares me. I’ve had gay thoughts that I do not even want to have. I do not think there is anything wrong with being gay, I just don’t want to be gay. Some nights I just get a really deep pit in my stomach and I think very deeply about my life and who I am as a person. The whole idea of life confuses me and I don’t even feel like it’s real anymore. About 4 months ago my family and I moved from the East to the West Coast. I have no friends here. I am starting school soon. I have a job. Everything makes me nervous and paranoid. I’m always worrying about everything, like work. I’m always biting my fingers. Now, I don’t even want to do anything. I just want to lay in bed. I do not want to kill myself, but lately I’ve been feeling like I’d be better off dead. This all happens randomly. Some days I’ll be fine, then some days, like today, I’ll feel horrible. I hope someone can give me some advice and help me out. I am going to a psychiatrist this week but I’d like to hear from some of you as well.

Thank you.

anxiety i think

[Vikings2596]

Thanks a lot everyone