[sensatives]

Does anyone have any idea what could be the reason behind being verbally impulsive?

It's gotten quite bad lately and I'm eventually going to end up pissing someone off if this carries on. I have no control over what I say when I'm in front of a large group of people, or someone I'm nervous around.

Today I accidentally revealed a very big secret of mine to my large group of friends without wanting to. I feel horrible horrible horrible. I never in a million years thought I'd tell anyone and it was as if I was drunk and couldn't close my big mouth. And now it's said and I feel like fainting thinking about the fact that I revealed such a thing to these people who barely know anything about me.

I'm crying right now, this isn't the first time I've done this. I'm so afraid I'm going to hurt someone or myself because of this. It doesn't happen all the time, but when it does, it's usually when I feel like I'm "high" or drunk. I'm scared of myself, I'm so angry with myself right now.

I never used to be this way, only the past couple of years has this been happening. Is it the anxiety? I wasn't even that anxious. Oh my god oh my god.

That seems to me anxiety is hitting you and you don't even know it.

Years ago I used to often verbalize things I wasn't supposed to, and now I understand it was all due to my anxiety. I was always shy and awkward when socializing and dealing with people, and was never the most popular or smartest person around, so I'd often make a fool of myself when trying to fit in. Oh the memories of stupid things I said still makes me hurt inside...

I'm also a slow thinker; compared to other people it normally takes me a lot longer to "connect the dots" and, fearing I'd lag behind in the conversation, I'd just dish out half-baked thoughts that would make me look like anything but smart...

What "cured" me was that I used those traumatic experiences to remind myself to keep my mouth shut next time. Gradually, I learned to think before opening my mouth (though this doesn't seem to work very well for typing on Internet forums...).

The side-effect of that approach is that I've become more isolated, more introverted. Maybe the reason why I was always so goofy when speaking to people, is that I was (unconciously) trying to be the person I wasn't meant to be.

Well, I hope that what I wrote helps somehow.

[annoyedgrunt84]

I think saying things you wish you hadn't ought to be a symptom in the DSM. I do it all the time, or say more than I should?

[Thunder Bow]

Booze and Pot will make one Talk. Best to stay away from those. You learned the lesson.

[TishaBuv]

Foot-in-mouth disease. I try to not say things I want to keep in, too, and sometimes just spill them.

[sensatives]

Originally Posted by Thunder Bow

Booze and Pot will make one Talk. Best to stay away from those. You learned the lesson.

Hahaha I haven't taken any of those things or anything similar in years.

[sensatives]

Originally Posted by TishaBuv

Foot-in-mouth disease. I try to not say things I want to keep in, too, and sometimes just spill them.

Doesn't help when you don't have friends and are trying to make a few. I hate anxiety.

[sensatives]

Originally Posted by annoyedgrunt84

I think saying things you wish you hadn't ought to be a symptom in the DSM. I do it all the time, or say more than I should?

Hahahaha. It could be an anxiety thing. I know things weren't like this when I didn't have any mental health issues. (hugs)

[scintillate]

I'm no expert in the field, but i think developing more interests in thinks that exist outside of the internet, in real world might give us something to make conversations with people while being in our home ground/comfort zone. I've recently taken to cooking and baking and now its not as difficult to talk to my mother-in-law, so less anxiety and lesser fear of speaking something i wished to have kept in my own little universe.

though can't say how well it has helped me otherwise..i lose interests in activities at the drop of the hat...