[nicoleb2]

My pdoc has part of my diagnosis "unspecified personality disorder "

He says I need to help him figure out what's going on. I hide emotions, good or bad. In his words "you seem to think that bad is bad, but so is good because after the good happens, bad is to come". Which seems pretty accurate to me. I also feel I have memory loss, but he thinks it's more of repressing memories.

I have looked up personality disorders and can't figure this out.

I also have depression and GAD. I don't know why I respond the way I do to emotions and I don't know why I'd be repressing memories especially since they are of some happy times in my life.

Anybody else have issues like this or can think of a personality disorder this would fit with?

I don't know about the personality disorder. Like your doctor we'd have to have more information. One thing I do recognize however is catasrophic thinking. This is connected more to your anxiety I think. I'm not professional. But, I believe you can manage this, with a little work of course. Have you considered a Personality Disorder workbook? Those I have seen have excellent descriptions of the various classifications of the disorders too. One of the therapies for a personality disorder is to practise Mindfullness. I think learning to do this will also make you more aware of the issues you experience, and thus lead to an improved ability to manage it.