[INDCI48BL]

To start my life again? Do I even have the energy?

It feels like I am at the top of a high dive, and keep wanting to jump down it to the pool of life again. But I am afraid that if I jump I might not make it....then again if I stay up here much longer I won't make it either.
CAN SOME ONE PLEASE GIVE ME A PUSH!

[JustJenny]

What kind of "dive" are you talking about? What is it that you want to do?

[lizardlady]

Originally Posted by INDCI48BL

To start my life again? Do I even have the energy?

It feels like I am at the top of a high dive, and keep wanting to jump down it to the pool of life again. But I am afraid that if I jump I might not make it....then again if I stay up here much longer I won't make it either.
CAN SOME ONE PLEASE GIVE ME A PUSH!

Yes, it is possible. I did at 46 years old. While it might feel like a high dive it can be done in baby steps. I won't give you a push, but I will stand out in the pool and encourage you to wade on in!

I have a sign hanging in my living roon that says "You're never too old to live happily ever after."

[avlady]

i like that you're never too old to live happily ever after!!!

I feel this way as well, and I think the best advice I have gotten is to try and add to my life one step at a time. If you want to jump into life, then maybe add something to your daily routine or life every day or week, and eventually you will have a pretty full life on your hands. Dont try to do it all at once, just add one thing at a time.

What are you planning to step into in particular?

45 was quite a year for me. I look back ad realize I really never 'lived' until I that year.

As long as this new path is safe, I think as long as it doesn't jeapordize anyone else's safety and security, you should consider it.

Make yourself a few lists: advantages/disadvantages, evidence for/against, and even a catastrophic work sheet. This sort of work will not only help you make the best decision but give you the confidence to do so.

[phyllis78]

Originally Posted by INDCI48BL

To start my life again? Do I even have the energy?

It feels like I am at the top of a high dive, and keep wanting to jump down it to the pool of life again. But I am afraid that if I jump I might not make it....then again if I stay up here much longer I won't make it either.
CAN SOME ONE PLEASE GIVE ME A PUSH!

I think it is never too late to try something new! Go for it! As long as it's a healthy decision that will benefit your overall well being. The energy will come as the circumstances change. I've had family members who went to university at the age of 60, and received amazing grades. It's NEVER too late to try something new.

[INDCI48BL]

I wish to thank you all for your input. Baby steps may work for some but I need to stand on the shoulder of Giants.

[INDCI48BL]

Originally Posted by JustJenny

What kind of "dive" are you talking about? What is it that you want to do?

That's just it JJ I really haven't a f@#@k clue. That's part of my problem and this has been now for 3 years I am getting sick of myself and uncertainty

[pegasus]

Well I do know that depression can make us feel stuck and anxiety about the future can do the same. Life has a funny way of kicking us up the you-know-what from time to time. Take the plunge!

[brkn2ice]

everybody has to jump !

[Quarter life]

As I gather my strength and will to embark on an exciting adventure in my own life, I lament the years lost and opportunities squandered. Time has seemed to stand still for me, years & years of wading through bouts of debilitating depression, coupled with my fear and dread of the world.

Mental illness bought on by an accident of birth, trauma, environment, faulty brain chemistry or associated illness/circumstances… is for all of us a heavy cross to bear, and is almost always exacerbated by those around us who perpetually tell us that we just aren't good enough, that we are damaged, that we have no value as citizens of the world.....a heartbreaking waste of life.

So where to from here?...how do we find our place in the world? A place where our endeavors are valued? A place where we can strive, accomplish and be all the better for it? Well to start with we need to be realistic….I would have loved to have been a dancer…but at my stage in life this just isn’t going to happen. However…I do have skills, bankable skills that I have slowly nurtured over my years of dark exile.

Yet choosing how and where to use these skills is the hard part…Self doubt, fear of ridicule, and indeed failure all come into play causing us to procrastinate and bemoan the inertia of our lives. I spent many many years in therapy and medicated...it wasn’t until I started implementing changes by modifying my thinking and behavior that I began to move forward...It was like the gears on my life had been out of whack, the only way forward it seemed was to realign them.

Several years ago...I took a long hard look at my list of personal beliefs and my reactions to the world, including my constant worrying of what others thought of me. Some of my ideas were keeping me safe, but most were toxic, outdated or downright ridiculous. I have now come to appreciate that 99% of people care little about what I think or what I do...they care more about their own lives. I now understand that I can’t wait around for others to tolerate, validate, laud or honour me...I must do that for myself. The worst choice we can make is waiting for others to choose for us, or waiting for permission to choose, as we may spend our lives choosing nothing at all.

Should I have chosen sooner?... of course I should have, but what is more important is that I have chosen NOW…and am so excited to see what the world has in store for me………stay tuned.