[Cavegirl]

I have an appointment scheduled in a couple of hours with a new Pdoc.
actually, I met with her one time before for an assessment back in November.
I couldn't make the follow up appointment...was supposed to re-schedule, but never did. Haven't been to anyone since. In that time I completely stopped taking all of my Psych Meds. At that time I was cocktailed, depakote, clonodine, thorazine (i can't remember for the life of me why my previous Pdoc took me off my Seroquel and decided Thorazine was a better choice??), I was being tapered down on my lexapro and was started on Lamictil as well. The "New" Pdoc was starting me on Latuda. My meds always seem to be in a constant state of flux, sometimes things just stop working, a lot of people experience this.
SOOOO...getting to the point here...please forgive me if I ramble. I for some reason stopped everything in a months time after seeing her - Dr. T. It had nothing at all to do with her personally or the mental health facility. I actually like it there. My last place was a nightmare. I have never had proper one on one psychotherapy. I am finding that this is something I truly need. This new place offers different types. I have been diagnosed bipolar and BPD - dual diagnosis as well - co-morbidity.
I have had one hour of sleep in the past three days.This has been on-going. Hypomania or Mania perhaps. I have been coming apart mentally and physically since September. My disorders are at a peak. I am completely exhausted now. How am I going to properly explain my situation to this woman today?? I can't even remember what I had discussed with her prior, aside from insisting my long-standing bi-polar diagnosis was incorrect. She believed it was pretty accurate, I asked her after the assessment actually. My BPD needs some serious attention. I recognize this and I am thankful that I am being proactive. I'm very flaky. I've taken my meds as prescribed for 10 years. This is the first time that I stopped. I just don't know how to present myself. I don't know if I can speak right now. I am typing though...
Any advice??? I need help...that's for certain. How do I get the right help??

[Skeezyks]

Hello Cavegirl: Well... by now you're probably at, or have been to, you appointment. Hope it went well. I didn't really have any particularly useful advice to offer anyway. I just wanted to let you know I read your post... & I wish you well...

[Cavegirl]

Thank you for caring Skeezyks. Actually, it was dreadful. This woman had no tact whatsoever. I have experienced quite a bit in the last 10 years. Some very kind and caring psychiatric nurses and counselors. The Pdocs, some seem a little more interested than others. But, never once have I ever felt uncomfortable or been upset by anyone. Never. Today... I felt talked down to, reprimanded, judged, and accused. All within 5 minutes of being in her presence. I raised my voice, and told her she can't speak to me that way. I was told that I need to leave as this was not going to work. I was exhausted when I went in there, definitely not looking for a confrontation. Lousy lady. I was shaking and in shock. How is she in the mental health care profession? She continued to yell out her office door and into the hallway! She actually told me that she "doesn't have the time to look through the patient files". At least grant me the courtesy of knowing my diagnosis... And know that just perhaps I've spent just about every single day in April and May thus far crying. In the past couple of weeks I had been to 2 appointments there meeting with several members of the staff, teary eyed, seeking their assistance. Every one of them courteous and kind.

[Thunder Bow]

It looks like she was nor giving what you were seeking. She got caught up in her process, and did not back out of it. Hope her supervisor had a word with her.

[avlady]

thats just plain abuse on the counselors part-it makes me wonder how they got as far as they did.