[JaNails]

Growing up, I was very sensitive and naïve. My mother usually was not home, separated from my father who lived in Missouri. Even as a child I would cry for people who were picked on, instead of anger I would become extremely hurt. This has long carried over into my present life. I find myself crying and easily hurt. At the same time, I am extremely empathetic (granted, I have my selfish ways sometimes). I know that I have a very deep caring nature for people that I think makes me cry and feel pain for people. I saw a dead cat on the side of the street and cried really hard as a child, even though I hadn’t really understood death at the time. Why am I extremely sensitive to so many things?

Also, I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder if there is some sort of tie. Even when I’m extremely happy I will cry. These days, I find myself so angry that all I can do is cry and think about breaking my hand by punching a brick wall because something in me will never let me talk the way some people do in this world, even when someone deserves it. Even then I will keep my anger in or cry in my room thinking about how I want to punch something so much until my hand breaks. Why do I do this instead of flying off the handle like many people? It does not feel any better but why can’t I ever do anything besides get emotional, cry, get angry, cry, get happy and cry? Am I just made to be a sad person who is deeply hurt by a lot of things?

Lastly, if this helps to better understand me..
I was always alone as a child or with an adult. Rarely did I have friends or like my cousins.
I never felt close to the kids in my town, I had one friend who I didn’t think was even actually my friend at times
I was the “weird” one to the kids. I was “weird” to the adults as well.
My mother was somehow both always gone, but extremely over protective (when she was around)

[MickeyCheeky]

You're just a very sensitive/empathetic person. Lots of people are like that. However, you seem to have problems with handling these strong emotions. Do you see a therapist? Therapy can help you by giving you tools to cope with these emotions when they show up.

[Sunflower123]

I agree with Mickey. You are a Highly Sensitive Person. There are books on that topic. A therapist would be a definite plus. Best wishes.

[possum220]

You are not weird at all. You sound like a Highly Sensitive person. - HSP.

You may even be an Empath - I will include a link as a reference point for you to take a look and see.

30 Traits of the Empaths ? Are You One? | Humans Are Free