Pleasure and Euphoria From the wrong things

For some reason I'm obsessed with mental disorders, but at the same time I'm struggling. I've been obsessed with wanting to have one and I sometimes fake symptoms for no good reason. I get euphoria when someone tells me I have one, but then the euphoria goes away and then I need more. My mind encourages me to act bad and act like this.

Have you seen a doctor about getting a mental disorder? If a doctor tells you you have one, then do do not have act bad to get one.

My Parents and people don't believe me. They think its just OCD
But I have impulsive tendencies and struggle with empathy. I don't feel fun
I have low self esteem
I lie a lot of impulsively steal money from my parents.
I lack social skills
rationalize my behavior when feeling guilt
I have aggressive impulses
and my moods switch a lot thru out the day
I sometimes am sad or happy
I have adhd and OCD and severe anxiety
I'm very intrusive and depersonalize myself
My psychiatrist is giving me questionnaires because she thinks something is not right with me.
What disorder is this or what do you think it is so I can suggest it.

Better ask your Psychiatrist. He would know. ...and stay with him/her. Because healing takes time.

True, but part of me doesn't want me too change for some reason.

I think seeing a Therapist would benefit you greatly

I agree. Getting a diagnosis from a psychiatrist would be beneficial. You can decide at that point whether to go along with the treatment plan. Another good idea is a therapist as suggested above. Good luck and best wishes.

Change can be scary, that why you are resistant to change. But change can be an adventure for you. Have courage for the adventure that will result from change.

Ok I'm working things out and filling out a very very long questionnaire

Yea I don't really like change
I agree