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Ultimately, I am trying to be accepted by humanity, and no longer thought of as an "other". Whenever I choose to interact with human beings, I am seeking information about how to make you change your minds and behavior. Of course, the last thing human beings want to do is change either, so they will fight me tooth-and-nail and do whatever it takes to prevent me from achieving my goal.
When I ask a question here on this board, what I want is a straight answer - but you won't give it to me, for the above reasons. Instead, you go through the dance of asking me questions you know I don't have the answer to (because you never let me have the information in the first place) and pretend you can't answer me without that information. It's all a game you play to frustrate me in a way you can blame me for. Quote:
And who the heck are you to tell me I need "correcting"? I have spent my entire life improving myself to make myself beyond your reproach and all you people have done is invent new reasons to hate me. I have outsmarted, out-worked, and out-helped most of the human race and all I've ever gotten for it was punishment. I am not the one who needs "correcting"; I'm not the one abusing a six-year-old child well into his forties. I am doing everything exactly correct. Any problems you perceive is due to the fact that you need correcting, not me. Until humanity stops abusing me there is not one single person with the authority to judge me. Who the heck are you abusers to tell me I'm doing wrong? When people lay into me, they're not "reacting" to something I've done - they are the first actors abusing me BEFORE I'VE DONE ANYTHING TO THEM OR ANYONE ELSE!!! This is not about people punishing me for things I've actually done - this is about people behaving purely by instinct and not caring about the consequences. I never start these battles; I'm always defending my self against you people. Even this conversation is simply me defending myself in a continuing war you all started with me when I was a defenseless child. You all attacked me first. Period. Any perception of anything different is your subconscious lying to you to protect your self-identity. You may not consciously want to abuse me, but your subconscious forces you too and will fill your head with lies to make it happen. Quote:
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I am dying because of you people, and you can't even muster up any shame for murdering an innocent man, much less abusing a child. Quit telling me what's "wrong" with me, and examine yourselves for a change. I know for a stone-cold fact no one outside this board does; I'm frankly shocked by the lack of introspection here. __________________ Please don't hug me. |
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Nobody has a right to abuse you. I agree. Could we please start here from scratch? Hello TheUrOther, my name here is Silver Trees. Not my birth name as you probably know but it works for me on an anonymous forum because I have been hurt deeply in life and I can share my ideas and feelings safely here without revealing my name or face. I can tell that you have been deeply hurt too...that you are still deeply hurt. I wish that wasn't the case. I am sorry that people have hurt you so very much. I got my profile name from a poem. Do you enjoy poetry TheUrOther? I will share a poem with you if you are interested. Just let me know. When I have felt in despair and at a loss for how to understand others, I turn to nature. Trees, water, the stars. What do you think TheUrOther? How do you feel about nature? Do you enjoy camping, hiking alone through a peaceful forest? Lying on soft grass and watching the stars a while? |
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I don't have to know you - you are a human being, and any quirk ascribed to the "individual" you is irrelevant. You are a member of groups, whose members are also members of groups, so on and so forth, all combining to be this world-wide social network that none of you let me join. That's all I need to know about humanity; information about so-called "individuals" is irrelevant. If you want to be treated like a true individual, start acting independently from others and stop treating me like everyone else does. __________________ Please don't hug me. |
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That's not a realistic possibility; I've never known a time without abuse, so I have no idea what "scratch" would be. As far as I know, the genie was out of the bottle before I was born - there's no way to put it back in. __________________ Please don't hug me. |
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I understand what you mean about the genie out of the bottle before birth...I have felt like that many times....some formula or secret to life that was not shared with me. I often wonder why I am here. What's my purpose in life? If there's no way to put the genie back, where do we go from here? |
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Do you enjoy fiction at all The UrOther? Fiction with some very relevant human themes? I like Ian McEwan. He has a new one called 'Machines Like Me.' Set in an imaginary time in London in the 80s where people can buy life-like robots and complications ensue. I haven't read a lot of it yet but I think it's a good one. It seems like an exploration of Artificial Intelligence but I feel that maybe it's a deeper look at humanity. What do you think TheUrOther? Am I way off?
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"Yet you'll do nothing to stop them. What is the use of agreeing or disagreeing if you're not willing to enforce your assertion?"
What do you suppose I should be doing to help TheUrOther? You also mentioned in an earlier post that you have a question for us on PC....what is your question? I feel we have covered a lot of ground here. So I'm sorry if I missed it....would you mind repeating your question for us here? |
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I can't do anything else. I'm morally bound to not tell that which has not been pre-established to be true. I try to be as tactful as possible when the situation demands, but I cannot deliberately lie. Quote:
It seems like human behavior is this cryptographic secret that looks like perfectly random noise - unless you have the passcode that then isolates the cause-and-effect from the irrationality. Without it, I can't learn what causes which effects - every human's behavior is completely random to me, with no way to learn why you behave the way you do. There's mathematically no pattern in the madness. __________________ Please don't hug me. |
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"cryptographic secret"
beautifully put! I like that. You sound like a mathematician or physicist....may I ask if you are or is that too personal? It's okay to tell me if I over-step. |
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I am going to go and rest now TheUrOther. I hope you find some peaceful rest tonight too. Maybe we'll talk again on the forums. Or feel free to send me a private message. No pressure. I'll tell you what I often tell myself when I'm confused and doubting the world...
The stars continue to appear each night. All is well. Ps. I don't perceive you as an "other." You appear to me as human as myself. I don't always understand my humanity but it's still there. |
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Close - I'm a computer programmer. Lots of math involved, and sometimes it involves physics simulations and/or formulas...
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Had a computer with easy "for dummies"-like programming manual made available to me when I was 9 or so. I just started following the book, then tried writing my own games in BASIC. I pretty much took off with it since.
It's hard to get a job because no one takes me seriously, despite my skill and experience. I literally have to charge half rate - and am still only employed half the time, on average. __________________ Please don't hug me. |
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"Resume" - sending in the same resume with a different name but same experience gets triple the reply.
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Then would you say it could be that they know you from Somewhere? Recognize the name? If it’s just a name. I would actually ask politely for them to explain why they aren’t calling you? Yet they call for the same resume under different name?
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Of course they "know me from somewhere" - my detractors spread rumors and lies about me whenever they get the chance. It's all a strategy to deny me any allies and other resources so they can prey on me without interference. Any inquiries are refused, and I am accused of fraud and other things when I reveal what I've done, and they pledge to make sure I never get a job in the industry again. __________________ Please don't hug me. |
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That sounds like a really tough position to be in TheUrOther. Sorry you are going through that. How do you manage it? Are there things that bring you comfort? Things you like to do at home when you aren't dealing with other people?
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