Inner debate.

You'll have to forgive me if this is confusing, I'm not the most articulate person sometimes.

I began seeing a therapist for ADHD when i went back to college, was treated as a child before. Well she says I have depression, I can maybe agree though with life problems I currently deal with I could argue those are the reasons.

My big confusion/question is that as you would expect she asks questions about my thoughts, feelings, etc. However I really don't like talking about my thoughts or feelings and I do trust her, but still I don't like discussing it with anyone. Only the anonymity of the internet lets me post here.

To get to the point, I worry about what to actually tell her. I do not wish to be put in a hospital or lose any of my rights to weapons. I'm pretty sure something would put me there. I want to keep the trust I have, but I know what would happen if I really talked openly. This is really the only thing remotely close to any kind of human connection I have. I convince myself that I'm not mocked after I leave the office, though I know I am. Just like at work, school, home. I know it happens, but i try to pretend.

Sorry for the wall of text, I rewrote this several times and it always ends up long so I'll leave it as is and hope someone is willing to bear it.

Thank you in advance.