[Bat_Orchid90]

“Just be yourself” easier said than done. I find myself constantly wearing a “mask” just to get through the day. And I dont just mean fake a smile if I’m upset I mean literally everything. Being social, the way I talk to people, the things I like around people, the things I think, what I wear, my mannerisms, how I walk, rconstantly doing what is “acceptable” or expected of me rather than who I actually am whether it be for the time, place, my age, etc.. Not that it’s anything bad?( who I am) , but like... just avoiding the judgement as it can literally cost friends, family, a job, etc. just not worth it ...it’s exhausting, it’s depressing... and It sucks:/... but i feel it’s taking a toll on me mentally... I just really wanted to vent about it .... sorry..

[Skeezyks]

Oh yes... I've been doing this my entire life. And I'm still doing it. And you're right. It is absolutely exhausting. It does take a toll on you both physically & mentally over the years. Sadly, even if I were to try to be my real self, at this point, I don't even know who that would be. I've been hiding too long. Thanks for your vent... no need to be sorry!

I can't do it. I have always been upfront with my emotions, and blunt comments. " masking" just doesn't work for me. if people don't like how I'm feeling, it's not really my problem. thing is, their is no off switch with me. what I feel inside shows on the outside regardless