[platinumblondelife]

Everything in my life has completely unraveled in the last year. I lost my home, most of the money I had saved, my entire family, my daughter (twice in the last year, but this is the 3rd time total) to social services in addition to other things. I'm also on the verge of losing my once very supportive fiance as well.

I've reached the point where I have completely given up. I rarely leave my home and have come to fear even the most innate conversation with a grocery store clerk. I've been through "therapy" so many times, been through so many doctors that I no longer desire to even try. One of my stipulations to get my daughter back is to attend therapy. I told the social worker I would rather give my daughter up than go through all that crap again.

My family has completely stopped speaking to me and that has been the hardest of all of this. I have always supported them and they have turned their backs on me. I've always been a distrustful person and will never forgive their transgressions.

Suicide is constantly on my mind. I'm a cutter as well.

What do you do when there is no more hope?

Welcome to the Community, platinumblondelife.

The Borderline Personality Disorder Forum is here: http://forums.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=75
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/bor...2/METHOD=print

The Self Injury Forum is here: http://forums.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=17
http://www.siriusproject.org/selfharm.html

http://www.nursezone.com/time-for-yo...ler_11808.aspx

The Relationships & Communication Forum is here: http://forums.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=7

Some recommended resources and hotlines include:

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
http://www.suicide.org/
http://www.hopeline.com/
http://www.suicideforum.com/

What do you do when there is no more hope? You fight to live.

http://monteewilson.blogspot.com/200...g-despair.html

((((((platinumblondelife)))))---welcome-- we have some here who have wonderful signature statements regarding "Hope", "Not Quitting"----

I know they have been through, or are going through very hard times; yet they will not give up their hope---I am hoping that you can catch some of that determination, and empower yourself!!!

You are not alone!!!----theo

[Julial]

You have come to the right place. We offer care, support and we are good listeners. Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing. The links that TheByzantine listed are a good start and have some powerful info. Keep the faith.

[(JD)]

Welcome.

Of course I don't have a clue as to what kind of therapy you've tried, or if you really worked at it or just "went" or whether the therapists were well trained or a good fit for you ...

but surely there is a good CBT psychologist that can help you begin to care again.

How are you doing platinumblondelife??

[MoonTurtle]

I'm sure everyone is saying this, but hang in there.

I know things are really rough, but there are lots of people here who care about you and want things to get better for you. Please keep posting and let us know how things are going!!