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ME EITHER/ME NEITHER



Inside a longer sentence, “me either” can be perfectly legitimate: “whole-wheat pie crust doesn’t appeal to me either.” But by itself, meaning “neither do I,” in reply to previous negative statement, it has to be “me neither”: “I don’t like whole-wheat pie crust.” “Me neither.”

I need to vent this out.

Ok, so you have it all together for you, great for you. Your parents are dead and you are retired and away from toxic people.

Well, guess what, I am not in that situation. I am surrounded by it, up over my head in it and trying hard to work on this dam PTSD as well? It is so much work.

Well, another holiday is coming and even though I am trying so hard. Well, LET THE GAMES BEGIN. I get severely punished on the holidays and I am still trying to get over Christmas which was TERRIBLE. Even though I tried so hard for it not to be. You have "NO IDEA" what is going on in my life, NONE.

And I will have just about caught a breath from Easter and then "MOTHER'S DAY". Wow, how hard I tried last year, went out to breakfast with my family and daughter.
The restaurant was unbelieveably crowded and noisey beyond belief and the guy in the chair behind me kept backing up into mine. And as hard as tried I was FLOODED. I had to get up and go outside and hide someplace quiet, FLOODED WITH FLASHBACKS that NO ONE GETS.

I was so incredibly embarrassed, yes I wanted to just disappear and be no more.
I have never felt so alone and helpless in my life. I HATE THIS CRIPPLING DISORDER.

No YOU HAVE NO IDEA, SO WILL YOU STOP WITH THE HURTFUL COMMENTS?

I have not had a chance to get out of it all to really work on healing. EVERY SINGLE DAY IS SUCH A CHALLENGE, YOU HAVE NO IDEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sometimes I have all I can do to not want to give up.

Open Eyes

Ouch! Can't wait to see doc and get anti-inflammatories Tuesday.

It figures that I would be the only one out of my four elementary school friends to not grow up gorgeous.

I am so hungry and can't get my mind off of it.

Have you ever had one of those moments when a prediction, wish, or lyric you wrote came true? It just happened to me.

Thankfully, this lyric was a mushy love song and not a tragedy.

• Why did the wrestlers have to fight in the dark?
• Their match wouldn't light.

silly...love silly...gots ta be silly as a dilly ebery day...or I lose sight of what's important...

I don't wish ill on anybody, but I can't help but hope the neighbors move out - we've got a new landlord and he's not liking all the commotion. I get paranoid with all the activity over there. And their friends come over to knock at my door if they're not home to see if I know where they are. I'm really getting tired of this. Time to put a Do Not Disturb sign on my door. I live alone and don't like this at all.

I am wondering if I should check myself into a mental hospital. I am suffering from severe depression and other things. I don't want to be alive anymore.

its been an interesting day but I'm ready for it to end now...unfortunately my eyes are still like this...

The ground hog shivered as he saw another 3 long cold months of winter roll around again...............

ACCURATE/PRECISE



In ordinary usage, “accurate” and “precise” are often used as rough synonyms, but scientists like to distinguish between them. Accurate measurements reflect true values; but precise measurements are close to each other, even if all of them are wrong in the same way. The same distinction applies in scientific contexts to the related words “accuracy” and “precision.”

This distinction is not likely to come up outside of contexts where it is understood, but science writers might want to be aware that the general public will not understand this distinction unless it’s explained.

"The rain in Spain stays mainly in the plain.....in Hartford Heresford and Hampshire

HHHHHUrricaines hhhhardly ever happen"....Dr. Watson:

"By George she's got it!!" Pickering: "By George she's Got it!" ................

Yaaaaavoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!

ha ha....knew it!!!............................egads! knew it all along...wow, amazing the lengths some will go to learn something....hey?

Why must some people think they can mess with a true empath??

Why do some people think they are "better than" other people??>>rhetorical.......I be on de loose now........eek! Donna mess wit Nana.....my grandsons know it well!

Do whatever you need to unhappyguy because you do deserve it.
I totally understand the struggle and yes, it is really hard somedays.
Please do not let yourself get so low that you would harm yourself.
I know you to be a good person and I also know your trying too. And you really deserve to keep working through your healing and if that needs extra help, then get that extra help.

Please let us support you and tell me/all here that so care about you that you WILL get help ok?

Sometimes without realizing it we can get ourselves trapped by pushing so hard, maybe thinking we HAVE to try to do something that we are just not ready to do yet. I think that you might need a break from that unhappyguy until you can get to a better mindset. And I know you have been trying hard, and YES sometimes it can take longer for us to get to that place where we can get beyond the issues that are locked within the PTSD itself. And if you need to go to the hospital to help you with that, then please choose that verses allowing yourself to give up altogether. It just means that you need more time yet, I hear you and you have to give yourself permission to do what you need to get that break you need.

I hear you, I have been in some bad spots too, and really stuck and feeling like it is futile. But that means you need to slow down and maybe even go to the hospital if you have to.

((((((Big Big Hugs for you unhappyguy)))))

Open Eyes

I have tto stop putting so much pressure on myself at work. Nobody else does. Why am I doing it? Instead of doing all of the work, I am supposed to be managing the team. I have to let go of doing everything myself. I should be thrilled that I can tell others to do the work. I still feel obligated to conquer it all and take care of the team too. Even the team told me to lean on them if I need their help. I find it so hard to ask for it. Fear of weakness. Then I get everybody else and myself stressed out and work is not done properly. I have to change this.

I need to stop slacking off if I need something to finish. DD:

count to 10 today before going from 1 to 10

Taking it slow today. Started a new job last night but was not sufficiently rested for it and was very nervous as a result. Resting today so that work hopefully goes better tonight. Sometimes, I fear that I am not up to working anymore. I have too much anxiety. Oddly, I do not feel like myself on anti-anxiety meds.

Mini vent - why are work out clothes more expensive than a nice dress - jacket, pants and shirt, ends up being in the 100's.

((((unhappyguy)))),

Glad to hear you got through the night last night. Oh, I can so relate to wondering if you are not up to working anymore. I quietly think that to myself alot. I also felt the same way about the anti anxiety meds too. Right now I don't take any and can't say it is easier either. But what I am working on is how my own thinking gets in my way.

unhappyguy, you are a very kind hearted person and you really have to remember to be kind hearted to yourself. Honestly?, I have to work overtime sometimes to not allow the negetive people from my past to continue to invade my thoughts and that is hard. I was so unaware of how much I was effected by that. Wow it is a lot of work to find a way to overcome that. But I really try very hard to continue to give myself permission to do that. You have to keep giving yourself permission to keep trying no matter what, and believe me I know how hard that is somedays, and exhausting too.

I noticed when you help others and give advice, you DO have some good skills there.
I do that a lot because it allows me to remember that I do know more than I give myself credit for. Sure, I could spend a lot more time complaining or poor meing,and some of that is ok, we do need to do that, but you have to also work on problem solving skills, and I know you have them.

Keep trying not to think ahead so much, that can easily happen with PTSD because there is some real hypervigillance there. Keep focusing on each day, one day at a time and do your best not to ask questions like "what if I fail somehow?". Remember that when you do that it is the PTSD that is coming out and so you are going to have to not give in to that. Somedays you are going to do better than other days, That is ok, know that you have good days and try to let those add up.

((((Hugs))))
Open Eyes

I agree with you Open Eyes - unhappyguy gives great advice and is a very likable person, who deserves a contented life.

Two boll weevils grew up in South Carolina. One went to Hollywood and became a famous actor. The other stayed behind in the cotton fields and never amounted to much. The second, naturally, became known as the lesser of two weevils.

INCLUDES



When listing members of a group, use “includes” only if your list is incomplete. A baseball team includes a pitcher, a right fielder, and a catcher. If you are going to list every single member of a group, you can say it consists of, is composed of, or is made up of them—but not that it includes them.