Checking in ( How do you feel today)?

Not slept all last night so I am looking forward to a good nights sleep

Tired and ready for vacation!

Hyper. This morning kinda went crappy, but work was amazing. My manager basicly told me that she wishes she vould give me more hours because I work so hard and efficently. Lol. I love my job. Not sure how the rest of the day is gonna go, but hopefully it wont be too bad...

A little out of place all of a sudden...

Sick....

I slept for 12 hours wednesday-- whoop whoop- then dragged myself out of bed.. whoop whoop.. those are very sarcastic whoop whoops.... I will try to be as pleasant as I can be-- not doing too bad with it... My head feels odd- i feel "off" like not all "there" Wednesday morning I felt this way a lot- I began to wonder if I should had been out in public for the small time that I was; but eh... i was told we will actually do something (thursday) i simi feel like i just don't care... it will all pass I know. it is just how i feel today/right now

Sad and alone

As Sat approaches, feeling more anxious.

Thinking of friends and wishing them well today at their meetings / appointments.

Still the same as yesterday so as a little overshadowed...

that was a messed up dream. it was only a dream. hopefully i can get some more sleep today. we didn't do anything but oh well. probably will check in later.

Frustrated with work. Need to figure things out.

Eh, besides work, which is always great, today was kinda sucky. Got into it with my girlfriend at the grocery store, again. As usual. I'm having a hard time reading her anymore. I don't know, work the long late shift tomorrow, so I won't have to be home much....

I'm starting to have a life again and it seems to be ganging up on me this week. Too many people wanting something from me at the same time. I did want to be more involved in the community...

Bpd hitting me again.

((((Tink))))
TGIF! I passed out cold last night after an extremely long day...i didnt get enough sleep (very broken) but I am relieved and happy it is Friday.

You know, people always ask me how I am, and there's a part of me that just rejects the question, almost to the point of being offended. I'm very, very rarely OK. I never honestly say to someone "I feel terrible." in person, because.. I'm just not an open book, I guess - it's easier online, but even then, there is a line not so far from reasonable.

When someone asks how I feel, I immediately acknowledge how I really feel, and with that comes all the rest of the bullshizz. Most of my happy moods are a facade; a mask I put on for others, and sometimes in hope I fool myself into thinking I'm actually doing OK, and that I'm actually happy. I'm often a very literal person, and find I like it, so when someone asks me how I am, I think "Well, I've got this going on, that going on, I feel this, do that, think this..." etc, and so the result is that I'm not doing OK. If I tell people the truth (especially people like family or close friends) then they will ask questions, and I don't like sharing with most people, so that is a dead end.

How am I today?

The usual.

I feel grateful, connected and happy. And calm, but a little nervous about heading back in the night because of the traffic (which triggered a panic attack last time).

ok i got enough sleep but finding it hard to keep to regular sleep routine.

frustrated over the delivery of info from my college about the new semester starting soon.

Useless. Like I just want to leave everyone and just be alone. Then feeling guilty for that because I know that my income is a big part of the household and I can't just up and leave. I hate it here so much... All I want is to just have me to worry about for a little while. I'm sick of being here and always taking the heat. For once I just want to make my own decisions for just me. But I've gotten myself into a place where that is impossible. And I don't know how to get out without consuming myself with guilt. I'm just so lost today... I don't know what to do anymore...

Fine as usual...

much better than the other day, mentally...

abnormally abnormal

Devastated, My mum died last night

I feel content at the moment.