Daily Comments #5- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

Plain mentally stressed especially on a family who doesn't care or respect your job...

The shoulds are not moving me tonight. I'm sorry that I don't have much to say that's helpful.

Let the wind erase me like a memory of a kiss......
Let these waters take me Away from all of this

I always liked this song, but i get told it is a sad song.....

i can see it but I find it---- a true song rather than a sad song I guess... if that makes any sense... idk why but it sometimes sparks something in me....

I live in Wilmington, but I've frequently commuted to Greensboro via I-40 and it's not much better than you describe, especially from right outside of Raleigh through Greensboro. I would imagine it would be even worse in the mountains. I've been rather nervous on I-40 around Black Mountain with those truckers bearing down. I want to tell them that the "runaway truck ramp" lanes are there for a reason, and that reason is not to push small cars into them. My dad is 65 and has been a truck driver most of his life and he said he doesn't understand why they would drive so dangerously. The company he works for values safety over time; I think that's rare nowadays.

oh geesh... renter is sick.. high fever and throwing up.......... PLEASE don't let me get sick too....................

I've paid my dues -
Time after time -
I've done my sentence
But committed no crime -
And bad mistakes
I've made a few
I've had my share of sand kicked in my face -
But I've come through

We are the champions - my friends
And we'll keep on fighting - till the end -
We are the champions -
We are the champions
No time for losers
'Cause we are the champions - of the world

Thank you Queen
(now posted in the correct thread)

Nope. Thought there was something and there is but it's too deep in my pocket to get out.

I'm riding a pony outside Walmart!!! What are all those sirens???!!! I need quarters..

tytyty!

So random, but my boyfriend's building is having issues with their garage and they may not allow parking in their lot. So nervous to park on the street and I'm afraid I won't find parking. I don't know why something so silly is upsetting me so much. I'm thinking because I used to have such a hard time finding parking before when I lived with my ex.....does looking for parking remind me of my ex? Wow, maybe that's what's bothering me. I'm so messed up its not even funny

I cannot say why it is bothering you, but what you describe would bother me because routine is critical for me. I control as many variables as possible and losing a rock solid variable like a parking place would stress me because you have to park, you don't want to be late and it is something you did not have to worry about before.

I have enough things to forget or worry about and add anything to my load stresses me out

AND Anything reminding me of my X makes me ill

Oh well, even if I keep screwing things up I'm still in there trying.

Just talking.. My sister invited AJ and me for Thanksgiving..I don't want to go. I look awful. I feel bad about myself ....being everything I worked for I lost which means I have nothing. I am ashamed of me... AJ got mad when I said that. He said I have him to be proud of. That he is paying for his own BMW. He pays for the bills here. He just had a beautiful baby son. He is trying to deal with the mother of his son. And that He has come a long way. He said I do have a lot... just look at him... smile
that made me smile...

What he said sort of "shut" me up. But I blabbered I am proud of him , but how can I be proud of him the way he talks to me and shreds what little of me that I have left apart. He said he is sorry and he doesn't mean to hurt me. Just he has too many things he is dealing with and he is stressed to the max..

SO i dunno...maybe we will go to my sister's for a bit.. But I rather doubt it. She takes excellent care of herself. AND has accomplished a lot..But then she is recently divorced... and gosh she is close to 70. WOW that is old.. She looks better than me tho... But that should not be an excuse.....

We shall see.. maybe if i sip enough wine, I will go....Is just I used to be proud and had enough self-esteem to keep me going....And when you lose that, what is left?

Some times in life I am a turtle.
Some times I withdraw into my shell.
The more people keep on poking me to come out,
the further I withdraw.

Just go away dudes and I will come out when I am ready...........

Well what do ya know. Had 2 glasses of wine and my knees don't hurt... Of course you all know red wine is healthy.. Tis good for digestion, circulation. And I forget what else.. A glass or two of wine per day is healthy... Of course we all know, over indulgence of anything isn't healthy...I always stop at 2 glasses... And it takes me 4 if not more hours to even drink two glasses... Guess I be a sipper of da fruit of da vine...

Stuck waitin for the medication to work. I did not figure on the adjustments needed to keep me at a steady level. Just need to get motivated and follow through on things I can do, but just procrastinate on.

I'm selfish. Bad trait. Fixable.

Devastated. Trying to figure out how to move forward ...........

No respect, no understanding. Sick of it!

I love cabernet but since I am on anticonvulsants, antidepressants, and sleeping meds, I cannot drink even one glass of wine. It is too dangerous for me. I used to love wine, especially when I lived among the vineyards in the Niagara Region of Canada.

Nicks Nose.. I've been holding this bottle of wine for a year, just waiting for the "right" time to open it.. Guess last night was "that" time.. I love cabernet too.. This bottle I opened is a gift from AJ's dad last Christmas.. A bottle of Chianti.. Best I slept in a long time was last night...

I wish my cat didn't go nuts at night. Shredded my calender, and then woke me up playing with the doorstop. All I could hear was dooiiiinnggg. I had to put his litter box in front of it so he would leave it alone. He's nuts lol.

Cats love to play with the door stops! Another thing I had to watch for with my cats were my ear plugs. I buy packs of them to wear at night time since I live near a noisy industrial spot. One of my cats kept playing with them and storing them for her own collection under the couch. I found her stash of them later.

Cats are crazy! My other cat arches her back, fluffs her fur out and runs sideways across the floor when she sees the dog.

Think this is cute