Emotions vs. Reality

I have a hard time controlling my emotional desires vs. reality at this time Does anyone else recovering from deep depression have similar experiences? All thoughts would be greatly appreciated

So angry at myself..... I could puke

Oh Pikku! I do know that coming out of a depression is like coming out of a dark place into bright light.

Maybe just observe what's around you, take it slow...many hugs to you
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Emotions coupled with reality can be hard, and then what is reality really?

Depression isn't my thing, it is illusion when I get triggered with PTSD stuff... I am not sure what is real.

I can get confused as well as being told "emotions are real" and they are, but yet emotions and thoughts aren't facts.
Guess that is where I have to look outside of myself, if I can at the times, and see the other factors in it all.
Some times separating and thinking on emotions, where and why they are coming with what is happening in the now can be helpful, but not easy all the time.

Some times I get told I think too much, and to just "feel" and let those feelings come and pass....

I hope you the best, I hope you well and many hugs 's

I'm just at the end of a dark, deep depression--one I thought might be the end of me, Pikku Myy. I'm only now beginning to have a sense of reality that I can trust again.
I didn't experience anger at myself, rather great guilt & an overwhelming feeling of numbness.
I wish I could help. I hope you find healing and recovery.
Roadie

When I'm deeply depressed, the only way I really get through it is by submerging myself in books, tv, movies, the lives of other people, places and things. Usually fantasy does the trick these days, something wild and fantastical. Anywho, I remember about a year after I got out of my recovery house I was reading the last Harry Potter book (it had just come out) and I was near the end and all of a sudden I was choked with rage and then filled with an overwhelming remorse that real life wasn't more magical. I hate 'reality'. It's so far from real it's not worth the characters to express it. I hope you feel better soon.

I am still angry, aggitated, embaressed, irritated, scared and feel like throwing someting against the wall!!!!!! So if I do not trust myself or my emotions... how can I go out there looking for a new challenge? Dealing with my mind is difficult enough!!!!!

Sorry... just very, very, very confused

pikku

Pikku, you don't have to go out looking for a new challenge. It sounds like what you are dealing with right now is challenge enough and until you have a handle on that I would not recommend adding anything else on or you may be setting yourself up for failure. Just take your time. There is no time limit in getting better.