[shortandcute]

I know this is gonna sound totally goofy. But, some of my friends who struggle with MI have talked about a specific moment when they "went crazy." I really can't think of a specific time when I "went crazy," because I have been like this as far as I can remember. I don't know what I'm trying to say here, but it makes me feel that maybe I'm lying to myself.

[Patriciaenola]

I was curious as to what you mean by MI the only one I can find is Mental Illness - but that is a bad - all-embracing diagnosis - like wearing coveralls - I have made maybe three - four posts and am a newbie - this defining moment thingo - well no - nor did I and I am not sure I would know how to recognize if I had had one
Defining a phrase like "defining Moment" may involve a lot of introspection - self examination - don't go there - until you can think about if it is worth it - searching for that specific moment may be not really worth the time given to it
May I say - I have some empathy with you and to me you may well have a problem - but by me you are not Goofy - make sure you really WANT to find that moment you are speaking of - is what I am trying to say

[A Red Panda]

It doesn't sound goofy at all. Some people just become aware of an issue overtime, but others might not notice things until something big happens.

Think of it like relationships - some people just know instantly that they want to date someone. Others it might takes ages of knowing them before they realize that they care about each other.

I've been the same as far back as I can recall - but through looking back, I do have various moments that pop out where others had noticed things. But I never had any huge AH-HA moment. My "defining point" really, would be that I know the moment when I decided to start working to get better - when I freaked out on a councellor when she suggested referring me to a psychiatrist and to maybe start some meds. I decided RIGHT then that I was going to fix things on my own. 12 years later and I've finally decided to start meds and talk to someone about it. haha.

[wadingthruemotions]

Originally Posted by shortandcute

I know this is gonna sound totally goofy. But, some of my friends who struggle with MI have talked about a specific moment when they "went crazy." I really can't think of a specific time when I "went crazy," because I have been like this as far as I can remember. I don't know what I'm trying to say here, but it makes me feel that maybe I'm lying to myself.

Not goofy at all. I have always known something was off about me. I do know there was a defining moment when I saw that everything I was doing, saying, behaving or acting like, etc were because I had mental illness. It was like oh, all of this is because of a specific illness or two and not just cause I am crazy wacko. K, nice to know. lol

[RedBarchetta]

No! - Not unless I'm goofy too.
And BTW I still don't feel "crazy" just simply noticing things - but realistically, I am the same now as I was before any diagnosis at all (and I am sure I am still missing some of them).
But - I AM NOT "CRAZY YOU GOT THAT!!! - LOL

[Nicks_Nose]

I have known of the overall Mental Illness or diagnosis of Depression for many years, but other characteristics and more developments have come through over many years to better fine tune my diagnosis to a more specific disorder. It is not something that suddenly became apparent in one moment, but, it did become apparent to me after we had a lifetime of connecting the dots to better identify the more specific illness.

[spondiferous]

I have had episodes myself, but only two 'major' ones. But I've never had to be incarcerated, forcefully or otherwise. In fact, every time I've gone to the hospital they've turned me away. Because of that I have a hard time not feeling like I've 'made it all up'.

[Candlejack]

Be thankful for the fact that you haven't reached that point of "critical mass". If you truly feel like something is amiss, then there probably is. Seek counseling and talk it out with a professional, you'll be glad you did. I know I am.

I don't know what your particular MI issue is, but mine has often led to violence and I wish I had gotten help sooner so I could've avoided a lot of things that still haunt me today.