something i've been looking for... (masks)

a good while back (months, maybe years... i cant tell how long) i read an article about depression and people hiding their emotions and feelings. it said something like those people are professional actors and can even hide their emotions from themselves?
i think i have this problem, i have hid these things from everyone for so long i dont know what they are anymore

i cant find that article and would really like to read it again and maybe share with my therapist, has anyone else read it? or know of what im talking about?

would be helpful in figuring out how i can better explain my emotions feelings and things im going through since it seems like im hiding it from myself - or lieing to myself, or misleading myself etc etc... ?