Not sure where to put this

I found out yesterday that it was one of my staff's last night working with us. I will miss him greatly, because he was a very good listener and always would give me side hugs. I will be honest I did think of making a false accusation against him because I was angry at him for leaving me. I did tell my house supervisor that I was thinking of that and then I tried to call my T but she was busy so I talked to an advocate that knows me very well.
I feel so embarrassed because this morning I had an accident. But my over night staff understood so my sheets are already in the dryer.
I was having a bad day yesterday after my staff left but I put all my energy into cleaning my room and then rearranging it. My room is not very big so it was hard moving everything and nobody would help me.
I have class this afternoon and then I see my T right after. I just thought I would post this before I do my journaling for my T.
Thank you.

It sounds like you had a bad day, but you made it through it. It must have been tough learning that someone you liked was leaving. Hopefully today will be better.

Hi LA-ML, welcome to PC!!!
And it sounds like you handled a really difficult situation very well, well done!!!
Loosing someone important to you, and not even knowing they were going until just before they went had to be/has to be really hard.........but you didn't make the accusation, you talked about your feelings with the house supervisor, tried your T and didn't give up there.......you talked to your advocate instead!!! So, respect!!!!
And your sheets.......please don't be embarrassed about them, I can completely understand how it might seem a big thing for you.......but in the "bigger picture" of life.........you know, that's OK!!! It really is!!! As your staff clearly understood as well
So this member of staff leaving.........it would be understandable if it still hurts at times for a while. But if so..........make sure you're talking to people e.g. your staff about it, hey??
They should understand and be supportive. And of course, you can talk to us too!!! As with anything you want to talk about!!!
And lastly.......good job on sorting your room, and another welcome to PC!!
Alison