[Kurushi22]

Was at restaurant with family
We don't see often
And I thought I was better.
Having food sensitivity
I didnt even look at the menu
And I ordered a dependable steak
No peppercorn sauce.
Came with chips, and salad.
And my uncle is one
Of the funniest people I know.
And we spoke about sport
And then him and my mum
Got engaged in discussion
From their younger pasts.
And normally If their
Is a lull in the festivities
I keep occupied
I will read the specials board
Look at the decor
But tonight I found myself
Doing a genuine spacing out
That I have only ever
Experienced when I
Was going through the depression
After a breakdown.
My Aunt who is unflappable
And so calm asked if I was ok
Like she had not
Seen someone do it before.
It left an impression.
Not one I desired.
She was the one
Who told me to keep doing my art.

[Kurushi22]

I was at my nans
And my Bro and his gf
Asked if I'd
Like to stay for
Tea and it was Chinese.
I said yes
Before I realised
I couldn't eat much
From the Chinese
Because I'm intolerant to soy sauce
And other things
And also conscious of money
I said a starter of spare ribs.
My Bro and his gf
Shared chicken fried rice.
I should have got
Chips n gravy
But the chip were
Not great from that Chinese.
I succeeded at dripping
Gravy on the floor.
And my Bro joked
Can't take her anywhere.
But she was nice
And my dad said
She would quite happily
Blether away to my parents
In the living room
Even if my brother was busy.
At my grandfather's 80th
I ordered the spaghetti carbonara
And my cousin
Kept calling my brother
"The scheme" which
Was a programme
Set in Kilmarnock
And my brothes gf
Agreed that he was "pretensious"
And that was being polite.
To me it was not a joke.
It was him believing
That we were a class below him.

I just remember
My mum and dad
Coming home from
Pub one night
Early enough for Chinese
But ratted none the less
And my mum spilling
Gravy all down her top.
And me being sober
Thinking crikey what a
Lovely state of affairs.

[Travelinglady]

Thanks for your poems. Have you seen the poetry section?

[Kurushi22]

Originally Posted by Kurushi22

Was at restaurant with family
We don't see often
And I thought I was better.
Having food sensitivity
I didnt even look at the menu
And I ordered a dependable steak
No peppercorn sauce.
Came with chips, and salad.
And my uncle is one
Of the funniest people I know.
And we spoke about sport
And then him and my mum
Got engaged in discussion
From their younger pasts.
And normally If their
Is a lull in the festivities
I keep occupied
I will read the specials board
Look at the decor
But tonight I found myself
Doing a genuine spacing out
That I have only ever
Experienced when I
Was going through the depression
After a breakdown.
My Aunt who is unflappable
And so calm asked if I was ok
Like she had not
Seen someone do it before.
It left an impression.
Not one I desired.
She was the one
Who told me to keep doing my art.

Thanks. And sorry for
Not accepting gift.
It was a brilliant choice.
"Don't tell your mates
On the council estate
Because there's no one to trust.
And don't tell the sky
While he spits down on your eyes
But tell the priest if you must."
I was insensitive towards males.
Can I blame David? Coach? My deadbeat dad?
I got a book from David's sister
And I said to nurse
That I'm not really into
Fluffy chick lit.
And she said "Goodness me
It's a present, it shows
They are trying and thinking of you. "
But I was in denial
That I was even unwell .
The lack of insight.
My Aunt also got me
Flip flops for going
Around with. I liked them.
And I read the book
When I got home
And it was about platonic love.

[Kurushi22]

Originally Posted by Kurushi22

I was at my nans
And my Bro and his gf
Asked if I'd
Like to stay for
Tea and it was Chinese.
I said yes
Before I realised
I couldn't eat much
From the Chinese
Because I'm intolerant to soy sauce
And other things
And also conscious of money
I said a starter of spare ribs.
My Bro and his gf
Shared chicken fried rice.
I should have got
Chips n gravy
But the chip were
Not great from that Chinese.
I succeeded at dripping
Gravy on the floor.
And my Bro joked
Can't take her anywhere.
But she was nice
And my dad said
She would quite happily
Blether away to my parents
In the living room
Even if my brother was busy.
At my grandfather's 80th
I ordered the spaghetti carbonara
And my cousin
Kept calling my brother
"The scheme" which
Was a programme
Set in Kilmarnock
And my brothes gf
Agreed that he was "pretensious"
And that was being polite.
To me it was not a joke.
It was him believing
That we were a class below him.

I just remember
My mum and dad
Coming home from
Pub one night
Early enough for Chinese
But ratted none the less
And my mum spilling
Gravy all down her top.
And me being sober
Thinking crikey what a
Lovely state of affairs.

It is pretentious.
Apologies for my
Typos. But I don't
Proof read incase
I wimp out of posting.

[Kurushi22]

I didn't mean he was bipolar
But his dad hushed him
When he said that when
He drinks a lot
He doesn't get to sleep
At all sometimes.
When it normally does
The opposite for most.

[Kurushi22]

GO to uni. Just GO to uni. You can chill. You know proper chill out (smoke he meant) .
I wanted a career or a chance at making a decent living. Fulfilling my potential.
It was different for him. He was so cushioned and full of entitlement. He was middle class. I was definite working class. I wouldn't have been able to chill. I would have needed a job. I didn't know what I wanted to be. My mum laughed in my face when I was a kid when I said I could be a nurse, a teacher or go to art school. We didn't even have a computer till I was mid way trough high school.

Originally Posted by Kurushi22

It is pretentious.
Apologies for my
Typos. But I don't
Proof read incase
I wimp out of posting.

Interesting! I like 'em.