How Are You Feeling Right Now? #5

Kind if tired!

I want peace.

The avatar is perennially on point these days.

I’m not tired but still hopeful I’ll get back to sleep.

thirsty.

very thirsty

Mixed emotions this morning

Sleepy. Might go to bed earlier.

Depressed this afternoon

Sad. Tired. Kind of hopeless. Undirected. Lost. Alone. Sad!

I’m nervous about my appointment with my sleep specialist on Thursday. It’s a female doctor and I’ve had problems before with female doctors not taking me seriously.

Tired. Just plan tired.

Guilty, stressed

I'm new here. Just joined. I feel tired. I have chronic fatigue syndrome, PTSD, and physical disorders. I'm also disabled, overweight/obese (though not morbid), and new to my area. I relocated to a different state by myself. I've done it before a few times, but this time, I didn't know one single person. I have really friendly neighbors, and the area is much safer than where I was, so that helps me. I moved so that I can heal without having to isolate out of fear, look over my shoulder, or hear gunshots every day. This new state I live in is super nice, quiet and safe. It's way different than what I'm used to, but I like this kind of different. I needed this change, though the memories of past traumas keep intruding on my thoughts. I do everything I can to acknowledge the memories, spend a limited time with them, feel sometimes, and then move on to some activity I like. This isn't something I really learned in treatment (I'm not in therapy at the moment), but rather something I've always done. Nevertheless, I'm tired, I'm getting older, and I wish I had more energy to do the things I'd like to do without feeling fatigued, in addition to feeling scared.

I'm really angry but I have just figured out how to deal with an inconsiderate family member. I realized that if we have 30 plates, she would use all 30 and then wash one plate at a time when she needs to use one. If you washed some dishes, she would use them all and toss them in the sink so you would have to wash more any time you are hungry or thirsty. I started hiding dishes so if we only have 10, there won't be more than 10 dishes in the sink and that's more manageable. So I'm a little less angry now that I have a plan. I already washed and hid about 20 utensils.

like a zombie. with a potato brain. taint no fun

My body dysmorphia is depriving me from sleep. I am thinking of my body flaws all the time and wondering if this seven-year-obsession about my appearance will ever end.

Content but I have a migraine.

I'm bored.

Today, I am extremely anxious. My hands are shaking so much that it is hard to type. I just took some medication for this condition. However, a lot of my condition is due to my ffeelings of uncertainty re my lfe right now. I have no one in my life I trust. My family of original is all dead, as far as I kmow. I become so frightened by everything.. I am 63. It wasn't always like this, but the last few years have turned everything upside down.

well that is all for today.

bye

Very anxious and frightened.

I have to wait til my next cigarette can't believe its only 11am,