Checking in: how are you?

I'm doing better. I was very much on the struggle bus earlier.

I can't make it to the bathroom without feeling like I'm about to collaspe. But in bed I feel pretty decent. Just not hungry. I had some stuff but not enough. Dinner is in the crock pot and I need to eat something decent today.

My moods and anxiety were ok today even with the news on. Mainly I just need to focus on my physical health right now.

Trying to keep it together. I'm here at work because there was no one available to relieve me so I am here till closing. Trying to stay positive while looking for jobs. Just know that when I get to the background check part, they won't consider me. I don't know why I insist on doing this to myself.

Like uh y'know...like ok y'know?

I feel terrible. I've lost my appetite.

I can't get out of bed. I can concentrate on Project Runway but I can't eat much or function very well. I am so. frigging. tired. Mental health wise all things considering, I don't feel bad. Its just mainly physical today.

Today was the complete opposite of yesterday. I got out of bed and got so much done outside of the house. My stomach and anxiety felt fine all day. I don't know if my stomach med is finally helping now or what. But it felt great to be able to get out to do things again and not have to worry about my stomach.

I feel like a bit player who's never notified of the script changes in some never ending absurdist-drama.
I spend too much time reading the news but ignoring it doesn't fix a damned thing either.

I keep thinking about the past like back in 2010 even though nothing like that at all is happening right now. I think I'm just sleep deprived and hot today so its making me moody. But lately its been one good day, one bad day. Kinda depends on how my stomach is doing that night.

Feeling anxious about my upcoming court date. I am working on getting job interviews to see what my next move will be. Everything is kind of up in the air and I am so worried I am getting myself sick over it. Working on 4th of July today, but if I wasn't I would be in bed watching Star Trek.

I was doing ok today until my pain became an issue. I can't get any relief. I've tried tylenol and pepcid and my stomach med and no luck. I ate decently today and I had enough water. I called my doctor for the second time since she still hasn't released any notes or follow up plans. They took my number and that was a few hours ago. I still don't have my gallbladder image test set up either. I'm almost ready to say **** it and go get a second opinion. But my mom probably won't go for that. But I am in pain and I'm being ghosted by doctors. What options do I have? This can turn into sepsis if left untreated.

Feeling a lot better today but just don't know what to do anymore. Feeling kind of dizzy and hopeless.

I couldn't get out of bed until past 11. I had the Today Show on in my room so I wasn't just lying there. Then I felt well enough to take shower. Which made me feel even better. Now I feel pretty ok physically and mentally and I'm watching TV in my moms room. I've stayed on top of all my meds and have eaten with them and I've limited my caffeine too. All of it has helped. Still no word from any doctor though.

I'm doing pretty okay. I just got back from volunteering and I'm eating ice cream that tastes amazing.

I quit my job about 3 weeks ago. Going from not working for 10 years to a full time stressful job was more than I could handle. I'm still looking for work. Part time and full time, just something different.

I am thinking about maybe taking a course at community College.

Tonight I need to return my Mom's car to her and finish my laundry.

Rather than pursuing compromise and constructive change, there are those that seem to be perfectly ok with tossing huge swaths of people who don't agree with them over cliffs and under buses. The outlook going forth in that fashion is an obvious no-win situation for everyone involved. To some extent there were always people who operated like this but lately the percentage of those who believe this is an acceptable road to goose-step down seems to be increasing exponentially.

I'm telling you now...there's a cognitive glitch of an unknown origin at work here. The freakishness and scope of the single-minded negative behavior I'm seeing is just too profound for it to be explained otherwise. How am I? I'm damned worried. I'm worried for those who stand to inherit the glitch...and I'm worried for all those who'll have to endure it's accompanying ruin. No winners from this unless there's a solution coming soon and I'm not seeing anything practical or possible so far. Sorry for the bucket of glum prognostication. Take this down moderators. If you see fit take it down. May not be the best place for it.

I am doing good. I did a long run yesterday in a gentle rain fall. made me feel great

hope court date thing will be okay for you

I knitted tonight. It felt really nice. I hadn’t knit much in a long time.

There are some jobs I'm applying to that I'm really excited about. I also have an interview tomorrow.

Praying to whoever's got their ears on that this day will go well.

Now that I'm in my memory foam gel cooling bed and under my cooling comforter and sheets, my pain is better. At least right now.

Im good,drinking coffee looking messu🤣

I’m running on empty. I really hope I do not say or do anything regrettable today…

I did some outdoor decorating work today and 4 of my neighbours stopped by to chat, it was nice and social and made me feel good.

Kinda tmi but I am so constipated its starting to concern me. I've taken 2 Colace, milk of magenisum, 3 chewable Dulacox, and I just now had a glass of mirolax, and nothing. I've had a ton of water too.

I probably took way too much but I am desperate for some stomach relief.

Its my gallbladder pain med. It causes constipation. It helps (not really) one issue and causes another

Very bad. Humiliated mostly
I miss being a regular person