miss ya gran

nvr gona get ovr the fact ur gone granny i miss you all the time. i think about you every day and i cant stand the fact that i cant talk to you any more. i miss all the phone calls that you made and i miss the fact that your just not here any more more. I know its better for you now because you couldnt remember a thing with the alzeimers but a part of me wishes you never went even if it meant that you had to live with that horrible disease everyday i know that sounds alwful just dont want you to be gone.

I always wonder stupid things like can can you remember us now becausse you couldnt when you was a live, do you know who we are now again. I just dont like the fact theres no more phone calls and itrs just the end really init you'll nvr ring again and ill nvr hear you speak and some days i just cant take the fact your gone.

I still have your letters and i do read them from time to time when i feel i can i just miss ya i cant cope with the fact your gone i miss you to bits

can u not just come bac just once to hear you again i need to just hear sommit from ya other people get it when their loved 1s have gone but you wont come true in any thin (cards and stuff) Y is that cant you just say one thing

Why do people have ta say bye for when they dont want to ?????
I dnt care how it sounds and i know you better of now but at the same time i want you back now You can under stand anxeity no1 else can i wish you dint have it but yuou did i do and i want to talk to you not say bye to ya

im sorry if i made ya mad with things that ive done lately. i know you must be disappointed in me wasting my life cnt help it but i know if theirs any1 who understand i hope its you.

I still have your letters that you wrote me and i read them all the time especially when i feel i miss you most

(((Hug)))

u were always a family persons u always had that loyality in ya no matter what. family was always the most important thing to you and you could always remember enven with the alziemers you always knew family was important. mam can always remember the spark you had in your eye that gave away some where inside you you remembered who she was even if you couldnt phsyically expresses it and she loved that instant feeling that you knew who she was. i know your with antie jeannette now and thats the best place for ya but u know we all miss ya. you've a grreat grand child you nvr got to see because of that alziemers you had i wish i went to see you before you went i think i cant forgive myself for not visiting ya i think i should have but i didnt have the money to go to england thats why i didnt get to see ya but i know you can see us all the time but i think mam really took it hard she usd to love when uncle michelle told her when peggys name was said your eyes usta ficlker like you knew for a second she was your daughter. ur very missed by every1

i am trying to klet you go but only in small doee i know you whernt young when you died (85) but that doesnt meant it was any less painful for us that had to say good bye to ya. i find posting here helps me move past how i feel thatrs why i keep doing it im not dweeling or being bitter i know you would like that anyway. you where a single mother 2 and i dnt no any1 that couldve given me jeannette or mam a better role model to follow you did every thing and mam always has great things to say about you so i know i have the right woman to look to. Michelle always has great things to say about you as well so you must have beeen a brillant mother as well as a brillant granny.

Danii, you granny sounds like a lovely woman. I am sorry for your loss.