[Muppy]

It's been 2 years and 9 months since Jordan died You'd think I'd be in better shape than I am. After all, its been almost 3 years. Those who say that time heals all wounds aren't exactly right.

Jordan't die because he was sick. He wasn't in a car wreck. He didn't overdose. He simply recognized he had a problem and tried to solve it. He was bipolar. He was out of his meds, waiting on a prescription to arrive. He became manic, then suicidal. He called the ambulance himself, and at the hospital told them his entire history and that he needed psychiatric help. The doctor wrote 2 prescriptions, referred Jordan to a psychiatric hospital, and then he went on to the next patient.

Jordan took the meds the doctor prescribed and fell asleep. Forever. The doctor had prescribed an opiate and a benzo, and Jordan had been drinking. He told the doctor he'd had 4 beers. Guess the doctor thought Jordan's problem wasn't worth his full attention. After all, he wasn't bleeding. He hadn't had a heart attack. He was simply a psychiatric patient in a medical facility.

Six months later I found what had happened to my most precious 24 year old son. He died, accidentally, according to the autopsy, of a combination of opiates and benzodiazepines. Just what the doctor prescribed.

[gayleggg]

I'm so sorry to hear of such a tragic story. How hard this must be for you. Thank you for sharing your story. I agree there are some wounds I don't think time can heal, but hopefully it will get a little easy on you as time goes by. But then I've never lost a child, so I can't really say. I know I would be devastated if anything happened to my daughter. Please accept my condolences on your loss.

Gayle

[ak482]

First off, my deepest condolences on your loss. I'm saddened as a human being, I can't even fathom losing a child and I can't imagine your pain. As someone who works as a pharmacy technician, I'm saddened and angered that it seems like nobody did a check that would have shown the 2 meds would have caused a problem taken together.

No time will heal the wounds, but hopefully you find some happy memories or positive symbols to ease the pain

[Muppy]

There are moments when I recall something Jordan said or did and it provokes a bittersweet feeling. I thank God daily for letting me have him for 24 years. He was such a special young man. My memories will never be lost. Such a good guy...loving, gentle, caring, and always wanting those around him to be happy. Thank you for your comments.

[Sabrina]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your son