OK, I've had enough of this year

My Daddy died in January.

Everett died in June. Dave died in July. These were people I considered friends. We hadn't spoken for several years, but they helped me get sober and we were always friends after that.

My Twinkie cat got really sick and died Tuesday.

My grandmother is dying. They took her IVs out yesterday so it's only a matter of time. She's 94 and told everyone that she was ready to go home to Jesus now. Can't argue with that.

I'm really tired and angry and tired and sad and tired. I feel like I get a break for a few weeks and then it's back on the merry-go-round. I know they're tired of me taking off from work if I'm not really sick, but sometimes I'm just worn through and I really don't care. I want to do things to take care of myself, but I'm not even sure what those would be.

I know I'll feel better over time as things pass and feelings mellow. I just wish I could feel better right now.
Never mind there's Christmas and traveling to plan on. At least my shopping is done.

Sorry to hear of all your losses and with holidays coming it does make it hard for those who have lost loved ones. As you say it will take time to work through the grief but it doesn't help now. Keep your faith and hope that things will get better, and our loved ones will always be in our hearts.

My Grandma passed away Christmas morning. I'm sad but I'm not but i am.

I found out on Facebook. My sister had posted something about it and my husband saw her post. Yes, Aunt Anne had texted me the news in the middle of the night - and that's OK - but I'm not the kind of person to wake up Christmas morning and go right to my cell phone. There are presents to open and people to hug and breakfast to cook - I'm a world away from checking my texts. Maybe when my sister saw the text she could have called me to make sure I'd seen it, too? Facebook. Bah humbug...

Sorry you had to find out on Facebook. That is sad. Wish your sister had had the forethought to give you a call. Sorry about your Grandma. And I understand what you mean about being sad but also not being sad. I can remember my Grandmother being so ill and I couldn't be sad for her but I was sorry for my loss.