[toscana]

The funeral for my mom was last Friday. I didn't go and I am now glad I didn't. Too much family drama over stupid things. The biggest thing was nobody even called me afterward to say how things went. I also found out that my youngest brother delivered the eulogy and got input from all siblings except me. He has my phone number and could easily have called or he could have asked me for input when we talked before the funeral. My sister called me several times during the week but only to ask about mom's stuff. She wanted things that weren't bequeathed to her and she was asking would I give them to her.

Anyway...I'm starting to feel a little better. I don't cry all day long now only a few times a day. I made up a powerpoint presentation for myself to watch when I really need my mom. It was quite therapeutic to remember her.

One last thing. I listened to a song last week about a telephone in heaven. A country/western I think. Can't remember the artist. What he described in the song is exactly what I wish I had. I so want to pick up that special phone and give my mom a call. I want to hear her voice again. I can't do that but I can hold onto the memories I have.

[sunsetsunrise]

hi. i am SO sorry your mother passed away. So deeply sorry that your siblings treat you as they do. My deepest condolences for your loss. Maybe if you do not need a phone to talk to your mom. Maybe she can hear you if you talk. I do not know. But it may be a possibility?

[Gus1234U]

these kinds of things have been done to so many of us, toscana, do not feel alone in your abandonment... and it sounds like you are doing all the right things to cope with your grief... my heart goes out to you~