I know it's been a couple years, but wish I had my mom back. Can't handle this. I hate these days...

[Pikku Myy]

Ahhhhhhhhh I feel for you... Hope you start feeling better soon.

[Frankbtl]

Hi Sorcerer, I'm really sorry for your loss......and sometimes there's very little anyone can say that can help, but just remember you still do have a large part of her with you.
You're going to have some of the feelings she gave you, you're going to have things she gave you e.g. feeling good about yourself/you, you're going to have memories. Now just because she isn't here doesn't make any of those things any the less real.
They all happened, they're all there with you, they're all yours to keep. And try to allow some of those things to comfort you too. I know that at times they can make the loss seem even worse........but bit by bit/more and more try to allow them to give you some warmth, allow them to bring even a slight smile.
And maybe take some strength in what you had, the privilege you had of having her in your life- it sounds like she was very special to you.
And I don't know if it would help, but maybe on anniversaries e.g. when she passed away or her birthday you could do something to celebrate her having been with you, to celebrate her presence still in your life.
Of course having said that there's still absolutely nothing wrong with grieving/with missing her, and allow yourself to do that too, afterall it sounds like you really loved her, and let it take as long as it needs to take. Just know that you're not on your own in this, there's people on here to share that with.
Just as you're not alone in her not being here, because you still have her presence right there with you. Right there to keep.

Alison