Feeling Selfish

My best friend tried to commit suicide last week. She is okay now and is getting treatment, and there is no permanent damage.

This whole situation has brought up a lot of my own darker thoughts that I've been suppressing for a while. I also, of course, feel very guilty and anxious about what I could have done but did not do. I feel like I should see my therapist and get help, but that makes it seem like I'm making this whole thing about me. I know self care is good and a need to take care of my own health before worrying about her, etc. etc., but one of my biggest fears is being a selfish or self-centred person- talking about myself when the focus should be on her and her recovery makes me that person. Shouldn't I just be able to watch a movie and take a bubble bath and be okay? I feel like such a failure of a friend.

I think it's natural for a situation like this to bring out your inner thoughts and feelings about the issue. You are not being selfish. You have to put yourself first sometimes. I'm sure you care about your friend, and will do what ever you can for her. Don't feel guilty.