[IntellectualFrog87]

Back in February of 2010 my grandmother got the horrible news that she had Mesothelioma and could only drain the fluid 3 times and then she basically just drowned to death on Oct.22, 2010 from all the fluid in her lungs. She was the first dead body I ever saw and I took it so hard. I collapsed by the side of her bed because it felt like someone knocked the wind out of me. Over the years the heartache is still very present. Then on April 5,2014 my mom passed away at 45 from being a drug addict my whole life. The day she died was exactly 9 years to the day that I met my husband. So instead of having a good day that day I will be depressed. Even though she abused me I miss her a lot...D!!on't know how to get past it!!!

[kaliope]

i am sorry for your losses.

Hello IntellectualFrog87: If you continue to struggle with these losses, therapy is probably the best option for you. Talking this through with a skilled therapist will help you to finally put it in perspective. Continuing to carry this sadness inside you may only cause it to fester & seep into other areas of your life over time... best to address it now.

[RTerroni]

That can be hard, I can remember that 2 of my Grandparents died only a little over a year apart a few years back (in 2006 and 2007). I also remind myself as I have just completed work on my video on people who died in the last year and every year I always end with personals (or semi-personals). I am reminded that there hasn't been a year that has gone by (since I started doing the videos in 2008) that there has not been someone (person or dog) who I have put at the end of it, and I unfortunately already have someone for this brand new year (as I have noted in a post on here). You probably have to go back to 2004 to find a year where I did not have anyone (at least to my knowledge) who I knew personally who died. This past year there were at least 4 people (plus 2 dogs) who I knew personally who died.