to daddy

Jan 12, 2015, 08:27 AM

Hey daddy,
I'm feeling really lonely today. I want to cry so badly yet I can't do it. Your the only person I can talk to. I'm sorry if I seem bad that I only come to you when I am lonely. But trust me on this I remember you every day of my life. I feel so empty internally although I'm surrounded by people. I wish u were here, I could talk my heart out to you. I hate such days in my life where there is no one I can talk to about how I feel. I miss you so much. Sometimes I dream of how my life would be were you alive, maybe I would be a happy person, not this depressed being. I want to get out of this hell, make my life happy. I know that there are always walls that we have to break down. Trust me this is my biggest wall. I need to get a place of my own, set up my own life. Become a surgeon. Have to do so much. I guess I just want to tell you, I want you so badly and I can't have you. I know your happy wherever you are. I'm sorry that I tell you my sad stories. But I have no one else I can tell this to. I am misunderstood by many people. I want you to help me this year. Have two goals I have to accomplish. 1) Get into medical school 2) find a job and Save money so I can move out from here. Dad pls help me, don't give up on me like others have done. Pls give me a sign. Show me something. Something that makes me believe you still exist in my life although you are no more. Trust me I need it now more than ever. Help me. Hugs daddy. This year has to be the best after 3 years of horror in my life. Hugs daddy.
From your loving daughter,
Fanny

gayleggg · Jan 12, 2015, 08:55 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss.

My great loss was my mother. Sometimes I can feel her hand on my shoulder.

I hope you feel your dad's presence because I believe he is there, listening to you. I truly believe he will walk beside you and even if he can't change anything he will be there to support you.

If you ever need someone else to listen you can always send me a pm. I'll be glad to be a sounding board for you.