[eggplantlife]

I miss my doggie daughter and my family.

I miss my family. They are 3 siblings. They kicked me out of their lives.

I miss my doggie daughter the most. I had to leave her behind. I couldn't take care of her.

I'm grieving all the time. I want to get over it and move forward.

Just very tired to write more about it.

I don't know why this is happening? Why the would do something like this.

[eggplantlife]

Very tired and can't go back to sleep. Would like to talk to someone, but I didn't call people. It's too early.

[birdpumpkin]

I'm so so sorry you're going through this. I lost my 10 cats in a house fire in December. Out of all I lost in that, my cats are what I cry over and still find so unbelieveable that they're all gone that it still takes my breath away. I'm sorry you had to leave your dog behind. I know that has to be painful. Did you leave her behind to people you know who can maybe keep you updated on how she's doing?? She probably misses you, too. Grief is indeed hard and very tiring, and we don't know how long it'll last til it's over. I'm grieving, too; and would so love to just feel good again, but I know it's not going to happen til just the process is over. That's something my brain has to work with. Not something I myself can control - if you know what I mean. I hope things get better for you and will work out. Feel free to pm me if you ever wish to...

[eggplantlife]

Bird pumpkin,

I'm sorry about your losses. I hope you will begin to feel good again.

I had to leave her behind with my family. One person gave me an update a while ago, but the haven't been responding to me so I don't know what is happening with her.

I just want to feel good again and move forward.

[nonightowl]

I miss my best friend's kitties, and him also. HE was/is family to me, since my own "family" is so distant, it's like I don't have one.

His cats are "my babies", and I'm their "mommy." I probably won't see him or them for years, being that he lost his job and apartment. He had no choice but to go home, taking his cats (or my babies!) with him. He wasn't going to leave them or give them to somebody.

Everyday I think about them, and I can't believe I won't be giving them nose kisses regularly like I did before. They were the only things I had to look forward to.

[birdpumpkin]

I'm so sorry you haven't been getting any updates on you dog lately eggplantlife. That has to be scary. Probably similar to me wondering about my 2 missing cats - you just wonder where they are and if they're okay. The not knowing is so hard. And that does kind of make it hard to move forward. I saw your other posts in which you were needing prayers - I'll pray for this situation and that things will be okay for you. It can't hurt.

I'm sorry about your kitties, too, nonightowl. I don't blame your friend for not wanting to leave the cats, but I'm sure you'll miss him and them as well. That has to be so hard. Our cats are family just as much as our other family members. It's so hard when they're gone.

[eggplantlife]

Nonightowl,
Sorry that you can't see your kittie babies and your friend. How are your doing?

Birdpumpkin,
Thank you for the prayer.

I'm sorry I didn't get back sooner and respond. I seemed to have missed this thread.

I'm still missing my doggie daughter a great deal. This morning I woke up feeling that I made a big mistake leaving Oregon. I could of seen my dog if my siblings allowed it...I guess if I lived in the area. I moved back to NY thinking that I would get a job within a few months and then in a couple of years when I get an apartment, I could bring her back. Now, my situation have gotten worse that I can't even forsee seeing her again. She's getting older and their lives are so short. And I don't even live in NY anymore.

[birdpumpkin]

That's okay eggplantlife. I miss threads a lot!! I'm sure you're still missing your doggie daughter and will for quite awhile. I'm sorry things have gotten worse after your move and ended up not going the way you had planned. We never know what the future holds. Don't give up in not ever seeing her again. Maybe a way will open up. I can't give up on my kitties, either, although it's likely they have passed away somewhere since December. I've still got my signs up because, well, they're not back yet... Their lives are short, yes. My Tadpole, one of my lost, will be 10 now. Next month I would have him for 10 years. My husband brought him home as a scraggly little stray. I can't tell you how much I miss him, think of him daily, wonder what became of him. The last day in our house before the fire he had taken a nap with me. I would love to just hold him again. He was such a ball of fur. I keep thinking 10 years is too old for a cat to be lost. Hopefully something will happen for you. Don't give up.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by eggplantlife

Nonightowl,
Sorry that you can't see your kittie babies and your friend. How are your doing?

Birdpumpkin,
Thank you for the prayer.

I'm sorry I didn't get back sooner and respond. I seemed to have missed this thread.

I'm still missing my doggie daughter a great deal. This morning I woke up feeling that I made a big mistake leaving Oregon. I could of seen my dog if my siblings allowed it...I guess if I lived in the area. I moved back to NY thinking that I would get a job within a few months and then in a couple of years when I get an apartment, I could bring her back. Now, my situation have gotten worse that I can't even forsee seeing her again. She's getting older and their lives are so short. And I don't even live in NY anymore.

Eggplantlife, don't worry about the thread. I have VERY limited access and time on the computer (being reliant on public ones, which are slow and can crash). So sometimes I don't even get to all my subscriptions.

Thank you for asking. Thank you for thinking of me. I'm so pissed about so many things, and I just blew off steam in the feedback forum about how I just lost a LONG PM I spent an hour typing. And I wasn't even close to finishing it.

I miss both my two and four legged friends SO MUCH. Tomorrow is Maggie's "anniversary." He adopted her on 6/15/09. She's already at least 15 years old now. Beanie is about 2.

The void is so painful. Playing with them was the only fun thing I had to do. I hated it in the support group yesterday when the leader says, "Do something fun. And tell about it next week." No friends, 4 legged or otherwise. And they loved me unconditionally. They were never too "busy" for me.

Anyway, since my friend is still on Medicaid, that's a bad sign. It means he's still out of work, and that's the first step for him to come back here. He hates it there.

Also, he not only suffers from bi-polar, he has narcolepsy. Medicaid wants proof he really "needs" it. And it's not a problem he can demonstrate "on demand". It's VERY expensive, being that the company paid other companies NOT to make a generic version. It's gone up 5 times, or went up 5 times in price.

So, this difficulty in getting his needed meds make it even harder to do interviews. That in turn has the ripple effect of getting a job even harder.

[eggplantlife]

I did get an update about my dog last weekend. I don't know when I'll be allowed to speak to them again. Bu I wish I can speak to all my family again and we'll be happy.

[eggplantlife]

My sister still not talking to me. It hurts so much. I know I have done wrong as a sister but I also know I have tried my best. It's not like I didn't try. I want her to love me again. I wish so. I'm sending out love vibe to her as that is the best I can do.
I still find it strange that I'm writing on these forum out to the world.

[eggplantlife]

I miss you sis!

[eggplantlife]

My update is I want to move where my doggie daughter is. I am praying to god that I am with her or live near her. I don't know how this will happen. I am putting it out there in the universe. I don't have much time

[birdpumpkin]

I wish you luck. I hope it will work out.

[eggplantlife]

I woke up tonight praying to god that the pain about my sister goes away. I miss her a lot, but since she doesn 't want anything to do with me, I just want to let go of the pain I carry. I am the only one carrying the pain. She isn't carrying the pain day after day, night after night...I just want to get rid of it and let it go. Anyone know how I can do this?

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by eggplantlife

I woke up tonight praying to god that the pain about my sister goes away. I miss her a lot, but since she doesn 't want anything to do with me, I just want to let go of the pain I carry. I am the only one carrying the pain. She isn't carrying the pain day after day, night after night...I just want to get rid of it and let it go. Anyone know how I can do this?

((((Eggplantlife)))), the only thing that sometimes works for me is just time. I know that's trite, but I don't know what else can help. And for me, even time does NOT heal all hurt or wounds.

I still my best friend every day (he's out of state cause he lost his job & apt and had nowhere else to go but back to his hometown, at his mom's). He's been gone "only" 7 months but it feels like 7 years.

[eggplantlife]

Sorry about your friend. May things work out for him. Hugs.

[Pikku Myy]

Super huggles

[eggplantlife]

Pain is less.

[eggplantlife]

I haven't written here in a while. I really miss my doggie daughter. My situation is not better in matter of money and job. I still have no means to get her back. It's been 3 years i haven't seen her. I really miss her. I am visualizing us together but reality hits me and i know i am not there for her. I know i did the best leaving her behind with a house she can run in the backyard. Those people don't want anything to do with me, but i hope they are taking good care of her.
I just miss her so much. If i knew that this would happen i wouldnt have adopted her. She really should of been with someone who was able to provide for her. I feel real real bad that i am crying. She was my responsiblity and i wasn't able to provide for her.
I miss her so much!!!!!!!! And she don't have much time on this earth. I am so ashamed!