[connect.the.stars]

To my wonderful dog of 15 years, I hope you did not feel pain when you passed. I hope that you will have a happier reincarnated life than this one you shared with me. I hope that you didn't actually love me so it would be easier for you to go. You probably don't even remember me. But it's probably better you don't because I was never very good to you. I'd pull pranks on you. And you'd bark like crazy trying to figure out what was going on until my parents would yell at you to stop barking. I'm sorry for getting you into trouble. I'm sorry for not taking better care of you when I had the chance to. I'm sorry for all these years of neglect and sadness and boredom you must have had to endure. I'm sorry for being a poor excuse of an owner to you. I'm sorry for never buying you presents for your birthday. I'm sorry for not loving you enough. I really wish I could re-do it all over again. But I can't. And you're gone. And life continues on. I hope that you will still enjoy sleeping under the lemon tree. That was your favorite spot because it was shady on hot days and it sheltered you on rainy days. I hope you were happy, as much as dogs can understand the concept of happiness. I will always remember you.

[Yoda]

[Frankbtl]

Hi connect.the.stars,

I'm so sorry for your loss
But at a passing it can be so easy to think of the "Would haves, could haves, should haves", and to let some of the more important things (which were the case) fade into the background.
So please don't judge yourself too harshly, it sounds like you did love him/her and that had to have shown through.
And some of the things you talk about...........the pranking..........is some of that more playing with him/her maybe............the getting him/her in trouble with the barking...........well that was never malicious was it, some even accidental, and you could say your parents were at fault for shouting not you............the not buying birthday presents..........so many owners don't do that anyway, it doesn't need to say that the relationship between you and him/her was any less at all for that............
So maybe things weren't as "black and white" as you're seeing them???
And.........you invited love into his/her life...........from you to him/her.........from him/her to you.......that much I think is clear??? So maybe try to feel good that he/she got to live a life with love in it...........something like that can/be is something pretty special/pretty meaningful.



Alison

[gayleggg]

I'm sorry for your loss. I'm sure that he/she loved you. It's the way dogs are. They don't really require much, but they give plenty. Don't be so hard on yourself. He/she knew that they were loved.

[connect.the.stars]

Thank you all for the kind words of encouragement.

[Bill3]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

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