Hey,

Gotta share this.. I've dealt a lot with my bad relationship with my mother, and now I feel I'm quite close to the raw emotion of loss..

I'm just absolutely devastated that I basically didn't have a mother. Not one who would've cared about my emotional needs and not just some of the physical. I'm an emotional orphan..

In my day-to-day life, I put on a front as if everything was OK, but whenever I stop to listen how I'm really doing, I start blubbering..

Just wish to be seen and heard with my grief..

This is a good way of putting it. Thank you!

Thank you, mrsjoggers!

The other day the grief hit me again, and I was amazed that it wasn't as intense as before.. I believe sharing here actually helped with that so thank you to all those who 'listen'!

Needed to dig up this old thread.. Really feeling the sorrow again tonight.. Feels like it's going to kill me, the grief - in my chest, where my heart is.. It actually physically pains me.

[Sparklyshoe]

I explain it quite simply but no one gets it: I was widowed, now separated and facing the engagement of my daughter alone with no one to hold me and let me express myself. I am not unhappy about the possible engagement but just scared to be alone when I hear of it.