[lebestiole]

Hello everyone!

I lost my grandpa on Mother's day, almost 4 months ago, and so far my family and I are coping in any way we can. We loved him so much, he was present in every part of our lives and we were thankful for his constant precence.

I lived with him since I was born (I'm 22 yo) so he was like a father to me, and he was also my best friend. We had a special bond, we were partners in crime.

His death was the very first personal loss I ever experienced and I'm thankful that overall I've felt in peace because I know he is in a better place, and I'm sure he's watching over me... but recently I can't deal with the fact that I can't simply go to his room and have a talk with him. It's a silly little thing but when it comes to my mind that I'll never hear his voice again it just breaks my heart and I start crying.

I talk to him constantly, but it's just not the same.

I miss him so much, and I can't believe I'll have to live the rest of my life without him. I feel like I lost an integral part of who I am.

[*Laurie*]

Hi lebestiole, I am so, so sorry for your tragic loss. There is nothing harder than losing our loved ones. Please allow yourself to grieve and, if you need to, attend a support group or see a therapist. Personally, I do believe that your grandpa is watching over you.

[Shazerac]

sorry you lost your grandpa.

[CANDC]

Hi lebestiole . Welcome to Psych Central. I am sorry for your loss. It must be so difficult to lose someone that is like a father to you. How are you managing these days?

When my dad died a year ago, I felt like a part of me had died and I had to reinvent who I thought I was because I could not ever change how we related to each other anymore. I had to accept how things were and just allow myself to feel the waves of grief and sadness over the months. It was like peeling an onion. I peel off one layer of grief and there is another.

It is the autumn and that was when we lost dad. When the weather is cool I feel a certain sadness as if I am in it all over again. Sometimes when I go to the supermarket I see his favorite foods and I think of him and it hits me, a wave of sadness.

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