I know this sounds odd. I keep track of things that have changed since my husband died. It’s as if I’m making sure I know what to tell him when he comes back.

I know he’s not going to come back, but obviously some part of me is not accepting it.

And it hurts every time something big changes. I don’t want things to be different. I don’t want things to change. I want this city to stay the way it was when he was alive.

I want everything the way it was.

[Raindropvampire]

I understand this feeling totally. I just drove past a bar that my sister and I used to go to and it's a daycare now. Made me cry. Just wanted you to know you aren't alone.

Yes, that is just what I mean. Thank you for your reply