[xmascarol]

Hi ever since my mom passed away I have not been doing to well.I feel so anxious today anytime I get a bad taste this will happen.Does anyone else have issues with chemical taste .I know I have sinus problems,I believe I have health anxieties because any time I get sick I get panic attacks, don 't know why I just do.When this happens I just lay down all day,I havent been sleeping to well either like an hour a night.My moms passing has really hit me bad even though she has been gone for five weeks now.Some days all I do is sit and cry ,I miss her like crazy,I was physically and verbally abused by both of my parents,my mom was the worst.Always putting me down so I have a low self estem.I feel so all alone.Anxieties stink on top of that I suffer with panic attacks,depression, bipolar and mood swings .I guess I hit the jackpot I could certainly use a hug .Thanks for reading this

[Yzen]

I hope things get better for you soon.

[Gus1234U]

sadly, even negative attention is better than none at all. she must have been an anchor of some kind for you, and now you are all 'at sea'~ best to let yourself go thru the grieving process without starting to abuse yourself to make yourself feel loved....

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by Yzen

I hope things get better for you soon.

Thank you so much I am extremely exhausted that is because lately I am having trouble with l been up since 130 this morning,

[Candy1955]

I had a bad time too, when my mom died. I didn't sleep for months, lived on coffee and cigarettes.Then one day I took a little walk. It helped, and I was curious, checking out the neighbors plants, and cars, loud voices sometimes, just life right down the street from me. I made it my secret time,and it helped me rest and sleep better.

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by Candy1955

I had a bad time too, when my mom died. I didn't sleep for months, lived on coffee and cigarettes.Then one day I took a little walk. It helped, and I was curious, checking out the neighbors plants, and cars, loud voices sometimes, just life right down the street from me. I made it my secret time,and it helped me rest and sleep better.

When the weather is nice outside I go out and work on my knitting and crocheting,I am making stuff for the cancer patients .I also make stuff all year long and my friend brings it to the church around Christmas time .I love doing it if I didnt have my knitting I dont know what I would do,it makes me feel good inside whenever I can do something to help someone.Have you ever notice that you can be so anxious but when somebody else is hurting or sick the anxieties go away?

[CANDC]

Originally Posted by xmascarol

Hi ever since my mom passed away I have not been doing to well.I feel so anxious today anytime I get a bad taste this will happen.Does anyone else have issues with chemical taste .I know I have sinus problems,I believe I have health anxieties because any time I get sick I get panic attacks, don 't know why I just do.When this happens I just lay down all day,I havent been sleeping to well either like an hour a night.My moms passing has really hit me bad even though she has been gone for five weeks now.Some days all I do is sit and cry ,I miss her like crazy,I was physically and verbally abused by both of my parents,my mom was the worst.Always putting me down so I have a low self estem.I feel so all alone.Anxieties stink on top of that I suffer with panic attacks,depression, bipolar and mood swings .I guess I hit the jackpot I could certainly use a hug .Thanks for reading this

Hugs

Hi xmascarol. I am so sorry for the loss of your mom and sad for how much it is difficult for you to live your life.

Grief is a part of life. Part of what we grieve is for the loss of the chance to have that close, loving relationship we always wanted. That is quite a loss. For me that was worse than the death itself. The final ending that means all my hopes and expectations were dashed. That was the hardest thing for me.

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by CANDC

Hugs

Hi xmascarol. I am so sorry for the loss of your mom and sad for how much it is difficult for you to live your life.

Grief is a part of life. Part of what we grieve is for the loss of the chance to have that close, loving relationship we always wanted. That is quite a loss. For me that was worse than the death itself. The final ending that means all my hopes and expectations were dashed. That was the hardest thing for me.

It has been awful I needed a new couch she always told me she wanted to help ,me get one well I just got her's I kind of had goosebumps laying down on it for the first time,i feels like got a part of my mom with me you know what I mean??Also there is a part of my mom in me in my heart.Hope that doesnt sound to korny I didnt want her to die for a couch,SHe was so sic kskin and bone she starved herself to death well she was 91 too,

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by Yzen

I hope things get better for you soon.

Thank you,so much .hugs to everyone here

[88Butterfly88]

So sorry for your loss.