[silentlyscreaming]

I'm not sure if I'm posting this in the right place...sorry......

Last August, while in hospital, I saw another patient kill himself. Today would have been his 20th Birthday.

I thought I'd pretty much moved on, but today has brought up so many issues and feelings.

I'm feeling the guilt for not stopping him all over again.

My initial reaction to his death was anger. I was soo angry that it was him that died, and not me..... I still feel that way.

I dunno, I'm just questioning so many things right now, and I'm not feeling to safe

sorry...........

[bebop]

hon it is not your fault. if someone is really going to do it there is nothing you or anyone can do. don't keep beating yourself up. I am very sorry for your loss and that he did it in front of you. I would be madder than heck about that fact. ((((hugs))))

[damajdancer]

(((((((( silentlyscreaming )))))))))
i know how you must be feeling...my friend shot himself in front of me a couple years ago. i also blame myself...but over time you will relize its not your fault. he took his own life, it was his choice. please dont be angry because that wasnt you. you should be happy for still being here.
hang in there.