...but my Dad died less than 24 hours ago. My mother found him on the bathroom floor. He was sick, but never let me know how sick he was. He was a man who did not want anyone to fuss over him. He did not want to worry me. He worked up until two weeks ago when he developed an infection in his leg from his diabetes. He knew he had a mass in his groin for a long time. He finally got a catscan for it on Thursday. The results were due back tomorrow. I didn't know any of this, besides for the leg infection, until today.

Daddy, you were my hero and my best friend. I find so much of you within me, and I thank you for that. My sense of humor, willingness to work until I get to the top, my open-mindedness, and my creativity all come from you. I was always terrified of the day that I would be without you for the rest of my life, and now that day as come all too soon.

I am crying now as I remember our last conversation, just a day before you died. You sounded great over the phone. Although I have only been in doctoral school for one week, I am so glad that you got to know that I started, and that I was able to tell you how it was. Now I am realizing that I will never see your name come up on my cell phone again. When something exciting happened to me, you were the first one I would call. I don't know how I will go on without having you to call.

Daddy, I miss you more than anything. I can't believe you have been taken away from me so suddenly. I never imagined myself, at 27 years old, to have only one parent left.

I know that you knew how much I love you. And I know how much you loved me. I just wish I could tell you one more time.

I love you, Daddy. Rest in peace.

[Julianne]

Hi Pinksoil

I am sorry to hear of your loss. My dad died when I was a baby and I never got to know him. I loved hearing of your relationship with your dad. That is what you should treasure.

My thoughts are with you.
Juli

[sabby]

(((((((((( pinksoil )))))))))))

May you find the healing you deserve in the love you shared with your father.....for that will always be with you.

I am so sorry for your loss....I know how it feels to loose your dad, I lost mine in 1999.

You dad will be forever in your heart and a huge part of your life.


sabby

[bebop]

hon I am so sorry for your loss. I don't know how you are feeling right now but I can imagine. I am very close to my dad too and he is not well. if you need to talk please feel free to either pm me or post here. we are all here for you.

[purplebutterfly]

(((((((((((Pink)))))))))))))))My thoughts and prayers are with you at this time.

My thoughts are with you sweetie. I am so sorry for your loss.... may your memories give you comfort. I believe your dad is still with you in spirit ...... take care, hugs, Jinnyann xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

[I_WMD]

Originally Posted by pinksoil

...but my Dad died less than 24 hours ago. My mother found him on the bathroom floor. He was sick, but never let me know how sick he was. He was a man who did not want anyone to fuss over him. He did not want to worry me. He worked up until two weeks ago when he developed an infection in his leg from his diabetes. He knew he had a mass in his groin for a long time. He finally got a catscan for it on Thursday. The results were due back tomorrow. I didn't know any of this, besides for the leg infection, until today.

Daddy, you were my hero and my best friend. I find so much of you within me, and I thank you for that. My sense of humor, willingness to work until I get to the top, my open-mindedness, and my creativity all come from you. I was always terrified of the day that I would be without you for the rest of my life, and now that day as come all too soon.

I am crying now as I remember our last conversation, just a day before you died. You sounded great over the phone. Although I have only been in doctoral school for one week, I am so glad that you got to know that I started, and that I was able to tell you how it was. Now I am realizing that I will never see your name come up on my cell phone again. When something exciting happened to me, you were the first one I would call. I don't know how I will go on without having you to call.

Daddy, I miss you more than anything. I can't believe you have been taken away from me so suddenly. I never imagined myself, at 27 years old, to have only one parent left.

I know that you knew how much I love you. And I know how much you loved me. I just wish I could tell you one more time.

I love you, Daddy. Rest in peace.

Pink ,,, Yea >>.. That sense of Humor ... You Have That For Sure ... Some Very Fine qualities You have inherited there ...

WMD. xoxoxo.

[RACEKA]

You had such a special relationship with your Dad. You had more than most people ever had. You were lucky to have that. He will be in your heart forever. You were special to him too.

This is an especially hard time to go through. Let yourself grieve. We are all here for you whenever you need us. Make sure you take care of yourself.

I am so sorry for your loss.

[DocClyde]

(((Pink)))

I am very sorry to hear...if I can help you please PM me or let me know.

So very sorry...

[winterbaby]

So sorry about your loss pinksoil, I can only imagine what you are going through, my thoughts are with you

[Justgiving]

I'm so sorry for the lost of your father.

(((((((((((Pinksoil))))))))))

[Slippers]

This is so darn sad Pink. The love you have for him just pours right out in your post.

For me, that love can stay forever - the ...um...denisty somehow changes. But it's still there. After a while it feels less solid and directed at a person, but it's more cloud like...or fog, but in that form it can surround you. That is a comforting thought for me.

Take care,

Slippers

[onlymedid]

Pinksoil

I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. It is hard when your parents aren't open enough to tell you just how bad they are doing. My mom didn't tell us just what was going on with her, but now I know it was so that she didn't worry us. Maybe that is what your dad was doing with you?!

Sending you hugs if you want them.

BJ

[Soidhonia]

I am sorry for your loss (((Pink))). Take care. Soidhonia

[Razzleberry]

Very sorry for your loss. You sound very close. I hope you can remember all those good memories forever.

[nightbird]

Dear Pink,

May solice come quickly.

Very very sorry.

Peace
Night