[jbug]

Last night I dreamed about Steve. He helped me out of a sticky situation in my dream and I was laughing at him in my dream because he had hair in my dream. In real life he shaved his head. But in my dream he had a full head of hair. I couldn't get past the fact that in my dream he had hair. He was just there offering me advice just like he did in real life. (For those that don't know Steve was my therapist). I enjoyed my dream and was very greatly saddened when I woke up and he was gone. This was a good night because lately my dreams have been scaring me because they haven't been good and maybe this is his way of stepping in and saying this has got to stop and still being him being him. But I guess that is too much too hope.

I just wanted to share that maybe I am starting to get over him dying but it is still really hard for me. I was cleaning off my end table today and came across my scrapbook page I did for him and how it is falling apart and how I didn't do that assignment for my current T. Back when it was the anniversary for his death I was supposed to fix it but I never did. I just couldn't bring myself to even look at the page. Today I looked at the page and put it in a zip bag and put it with my scrapping stuff to eventually fix but can't bring myself to work on it right now.

Jbug

[sunrise]

jbug, that's a really nice dream you had about Steve. Some joy there. Maybe wherever you picture Steve being right now, it is with a full head of hair. Sometimes I have this fantasy that if I could give my therapist one thing in life, I would give him his hair back (he shaves his head too). It's something I think he would really like. So I think it's neat that you gave Steve his hair in your dream. A great gift!

[MissCharlotte]

Hi Jbug,

You are incredibly brave. Yeah, I remember Steve and I am impressed that you have been able to post about your dream. It seems he is still an important part of your healing! That is wonderful.

Best,

Miss C.