[HALLIEBETH87]

I have done so well in the last few months. No depression or extreme mood swings. But, lately I have been thinking about dad more and more. He keeps coming to mind and I have begun surrounding myself with him again. Sounds like am ok idea but it only makes it worse. Im back to listening to the songs from his funeral...hugging the teddy I made in memory of him, watching old childhood videos to hear his voice etc.

Last session with T I think I randomly said something about Dad and she said..." I'm wondering....if we need to do more grief work." I blew it off and told her no no i am fine. I don't think she bought it.I don't wanna admit to her thatI am having problems with it.

[Capp]

((HALLIEBETH))
It's so hard when we have those patches of time when the grief comes again...
I hope you feel better soon.

It took my a couple of years before I could grieve for my father. We loved each other but had never been close. It was painful to realize that we would never have that chance...

Peace to you,
Cap

((((((HALLIEBETH87))))))))))))) grief is a very hard thing at times
take your time with it be kind to you
muffy

[I_WMD]

Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87

I have done so well in the last few months. No depression or extreme mood swings. But, lately I have been thinking about dad more and more. He keeps coming to mind and I have begun surrounding myself with him again. Sounds like am ok idea but it only makes it worse. Im back to listening to the songs from his funeral...hugging the teddy I made in memory of him, watching old childhood videos to hear his voice etc.

Last session with T I think I randomly said something about Dad and she said..." I'm wondering....if we need to do more grief work." I blew it off and told her no no i am fine. I don't think she bought it.I don't wanna admit to her thatI am having problems with it.

Hallie ,, [ I be in an early place for grief ] ,,, This place is as to each ,, Their own way to approach . That You wanted / needed to bring about this solid memory place , with voice and pics . ,,,, You ARE wanting to except and find the way to move on .

But Seriously ? ,,,, If * T * thinks it be a place to go ,,,, [ " grief work " ] ,, IMO ? >>. Hallie if you can narrow down where this place for you is evolving from >>> maybe ,, give that some thought .

WMD.xoxox.

[vpariah]

I totally understand what you are going through. There is not one day that passes where i do not think of my dad. I was ten when my father passed, years later and i still find it hard to cope.
Things that help cheer me up are thinking about things that I can do/accomplish that would have made him smile and be proud of me. (before doing certian tasks i say "this one is for you dad.") But then there are the times when i really do wish he was present for a certian event, then i get depressed... but just keep reminding yourself, he is always there watching over you and smiling.

[notz]

Halliebeth,

Imho, it is perfectly natural to think of your dad. My father died when I was 23 years old and I'm 55 now and I still think of him quite often. There are times when I feel the need to be closer to him still. Sometimes I surround myself with things too. It comforts me to pull out the handkerchief of his I saved. Sometimes I just look at it or put it against my face. Sometimes I take a big sniff of it to see if I can smell him again! It's a connection to him and the many emotions I have surrounding him.

On some level, I know that my connections can only be a quick visit and then I have to get back to current reality. But there's no explaining the comfort I receive when I'm walking through the house and glance at a picture of him!

I don't know all your circumstances but your therapist is best suited to help you. Maybe it is time to take another look at your grief. This is how it is. Periodically over time you will revisit this loss in your life. That's what happens. it's part of you and you deal with it. It is never, ever a one time thing! There are many layers, much like peeling a onion - complete with discomfort and tears. Work with T and allow it to happen.

notz

[HALLIEBETH87]

I saw T today but didnt bring it up.....spent sessiontalking about something happening lately with a guy...

ty for responses

[nowheretorun]

sending strength for you ((Hallie)))) dont give up, there is a reason for everything and you can make it all the way through if you dont give up.. sending hope too just in case you need that also..