[January]

I am used to being really thin. As my ulcerative colitis calmed down I gained some but I was still doing pretty well. In less than four months I have gained over 25 pounds!

My Dr. says my body is reacting to one calorie like it's three or four calories. She says it's not what I'm eating exactly; that it's a chemical reaction. I was accidentally over dosed on steroids which has evidentally thrown me into Poly-Cystic Ovary Syndrome, and the weight gain, which is mostly in my stomach. I look like I'm pregnant and I'm just round and have even less energy than normal.

My t was just horrified at the swelling. She hadn't seen me for 1 1/2 months and evidentally the change was monumental.

With the ulcerative colitis, I can't digest fruits or vegetables except for potatoes. The potatoes have to go. I can't digest whole grain anything, so there go the carbs. That leaves protein, which I can sometimes tolerate in small amounts.

There are other complications from the overdose of steroids but I'm not ready to go into that yet. It does involve surgery, but thankfully shouldn't be anything too serious.

I'm embarrassed, tired and sick of the whole mess. The Dr. said I have to get this weight off or risk developing diabetes. I know, I know I should be thankful for all the good things I have and I'll probably be sorry I posted this later today...

If you've managed to read this far, thank you so much for your kindness and interest. I really appreciate it.

[Rhapsody]

I know how you are feeling as I too seem to put on weight with out reason and the doctors are saying that my body just doesn't function right and then you add in all the medicine I am on along with my RA/Fibro and you have a recipe for disaster.... the only good thing that has come out of all this is knowing that my husband loves me no matter what size I am (and that's saying a lot as I was a size 1 when I first met him 26 years ago).

[January]

Oh Rhap, I'm so glad your relationship is so good with your hubby. Thank you for understanding how I feel.

The gentleman that I'm interested in is, if anything more buff than he was in college. We don't see each other often and the last time he saw me he was shocked at the weight gain though he tried hard to hide it. That was just part of the weight gain. I don't know what he'll think of all of this. Of course, I do realize that if he walks away because of it, I'm better off without him. (Thank you Nancy the t and Dr. B, the p-doc for knocking that sense into me!)

I don't feel like I have the right to be angry about this because things could be so much worse. They really could.

The diabetes comment really frightened me. My Dad had diabetes and so does my brother. I inherited my father's mental illnesses. I hoped so much that I could avoid the diabetes and I feel like I'm on an out of control train heading right for it.

I've been so triggered I haven't slept at all yet. That is never a good sign.

[trixielou]

if anyone here is gaining weight & have a mirena iud or i guess any kind of bctrl with hormones u might wanna consider non hormonal bctrl. i had a mirena put in & gained 30lbs despite the fact i walked all summer 4 miles a day sometimes more pushing my 18 month old in a jogging stroller. i also live in a house with stairs where im doing atleast the equivalent of 15 minutes on a stairmaster. i got the mirena removed about a month ago & got the paraguard copper iud no hormones i gotta weigh myself today but i know my stomach has gone down. i was like a bloated pregnant woman also blood pressure was prehypertensive. just thought id share this

[jacq10]

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[January]

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Thank you so very, very much.