[jen29]

hi,

I am just going to skip to what is going on...I was in the hospital for a week for mental evaluation and when I got out the next day I was in the ER for excrusiation lower right pain in abdomen. They ran blood tests and did x-ray and said it was constipation. I didn't question it cause it's been years since have had that happen and am on LOTS of medication that can cause that especially some pain meds. So I did what they asked and came home and the pain went away for maybe 2 days.

Anyways yesterday I went into my primary doc in more pain than before. My doc is so nice and spent like 45 min with me trying to figure out what this is. He ran some more blood tests for liver and pancras...and did an ultrasound to make sure i didn't have any cysts. the ultrasound was good...so that's good.

Now am concerned this is just in my head, the pain is so bad at times, he gave me a script for tramodol and have taken a couple, but am not a fan of pain meds cause they make me pretty tired, but i do need sleep.
Anyways, i am just so frustrated with myself that it's one thing after another or so it seems. When I called my mom yesterday she said it's always something with you isn't it? All I said was yeah it seems to be.
I know that stress can make you have physical pains/symptoms with no findings of anything wrong....I just don't get it.

I want them to find something cause have been told before that when I have had something wrong and actually they did surgery that it was psychological and that was that. So now am scared they are going to say the same thing this time.

The pain can be so bad that just walking or sitting or actually doing anything is so hard. I don't know what to do/think about this. I think am a hypochondriac with all this stuff cause I am always at the doc whether for blood work or being sick or psych appts.

I am on a lot of medicaton for things and thought that it was causing the severe pain, but have been on these meds for sometime except they add or take away sometimes and i am ok with that physically anyways.

I mean i don't want anything bad wrong with me...don't get me wrong. But I don't want them to come back and say we can't find anything wrong cause I know what that means, and I don't think i could go back to the clinic ever again.

Anyways, thanks for my rambling. I am sorry it's so long, I am just so frustrated with myself cause something is always wrong and I try and just let it go till it is bad, but this time the pain is SOOOo bad that I got scared it was my appendix, but must not be.

Thanks again
Hugs,
jen

[Gus1234U]

Dear Jen,,, Let me just say that doctors are very fond of blaming people, especially women, for their own shortcomings. Just because they have not found the physical cause of your pain does not mean there isn't one. Many things can cause abdominal pains, and pain can seem to be in a different place than where the cause is~! Always remember, that the #3 cause of death in the U.S. is,,,,, Medical Malpractice~! Get another opinion if this keeps up, and above all, practice trusting yourself. Gus

[jen29]

so got the lab results today and everything is fine. Still frustrated and in pain. Trying not to take any pain pills cause just masks the pain and then am just out of it for a while.

I did ask for a referal for Mayo Clinic in the next State...only about 90 min. away so I don't know what's going to happen from here. I will get the referal monday as my doc. wasn't in today.

My mind is telling me to just forget it and see what happens from here, maybe it is just all in the head and nothing at all. I have a lot of self-doubt when it comes to my health because of people telling me oh it's stress, which it could be, or it's all in my head.

So that's what went on today.
jen

[iluuvpups]

I say that you should continue to search for what is causing you the very real pain. If you've ever watched "Mystery Diagnosis" on TV or had something that was misdiagnosed (I have), you know that Doctors are just fallible humans and they don't have all the answers. You have to be your own advocate and keep pressing for answers until you find the cause.

[NuckingFutz]

Definately do the referral thing. It is your health and you need to take care of it. Not for nothing, but what your mom said to you is very unsupportive. What she said could be damaging as it indicates that your symtoms are your fault and they are not.

[jen29]

Thanks everyone.

I do feel like a fool right now. I don't know how to think about all this. The pain is moving around now, but it does mainly stay in one spot for a while. I have been taking the pills cause the pain can be intollerable at times, and then I sleep and wake up and have to do it all over again.

Guess I will find out more in the morning or something.

Thanks again. I am really in self-doubt mode right now, but hopefully my doc. or someone there can be reassuring or something...idk I need some reasurrance from him or I am feeling like a total fool.

Jen

[Travelinglady]

Hey, Jen. You had me worried when you said you weren't going to take any more pain pills. If you're in pain, you're in pain! My therapist tells me to take my pain meds, since I don't need any more stress....So, I'm glad to hear you're back on them! We need to do what we have to do to survive.

I know what you mean about having one problem after another......I feel that way, too. I'm not saying that anything is "all in your head," but you might consider keeping a therapist handy. I find that they are helpful in managing life--being supportive through all my illnesses.

[shezbut]

Originally Posted by jen29

Thanks everyone.

I do feel like a fool right now. I don't know how to think about all this. The pain is moving around now, but it does mainly stay in one spot for a while. I have been taking the pills cause the pain can be intollerable at times, and then I sleep and wake up and have to do it all over again.

Guess I will find out more in the morning or something.

Thanks again. I am really in self-doubt mode right now, but hopefully my doc. or someone there can be reassuring or something...idk I need some reasurrance from him or I am feeling like a total fool.

Jen

(((Jen)))

I can understand your fear and self-kicking. But, try not to give in to that self-blame!

I have heard of phantom pains ~ which can be excruciating ~ but never "seen". That's a possibility. You may want to look into that area if Mayo Clinic can't find a cause. Coming to Mayo can be a big relief. I think that you still ought to do it.

One other thing: you mentioned your pain pills being constipating. I took some after my brain surgery. I was in excruciating pain, even with the major pain pills. However, I didn't have a BM for one month! I didn't realize that I was dangerously impacted. I could not eat or drink, without vomiting! Doctors assumed that I was regular, because I didn't know that I was supposed to say something & they didn't ask me. Who knew?? So, if you find yourself not going for a week (or more), you seriously need to get help. An **** thingie ( I'm sorry, can't recall the name!) will wash out the impaction. That will make your tummy feel better too. Perhaps you just need to do that regularly until the pain med is changed, stopped, or another change is made & makes the difference.

Very best wishes to you Jen!!