[alainamaye]

I dont really know where to start.

I've been a different person for 2 years due to a somewhat traumatic break up. It was hard but I got through it but last year there was a death within my family that shook me up completely and its like it must have pressed a load of buttons or something and made all my feelings like bolder and more frequent and so so much more worse and they wont go away!! I dont know whats happening it's like one minute i feel okay like i think things are going to be fine, but suddenly theres just this massive turn and I just feel like theres no point in anything and i feel like everyone hates me and no one cares about me. My 'future' just feels as if its going to be painful and Im actually dreading summer I feel so lost in summer and so unwanted?! Everything just seems boring and my self harm is getting worse and i find it hard and too much effort to talk to people its just like im trapped in a world that i don't want to be in?? i thought this was normal until I talked to my school councillor the other day?! What is happening?!?!?

[likewater]

It sounds like you are overwhelmed and definitely suffering. Your post is filled with
pain loneliness and isolation. I'm glad you talked to your school counselor; keep.doing. that. Get as much support as you can. A professional therapist would be awesome. Do you have a.family member you can talk to who can get you some help? Please keep posting on here as well. May angels surround you. Stay safe.

[alainamaye]

I will do, and I'm not too sure I'll see about family! I will do thank you xx that quote is lovely